Sunday, June 07, 2009
just had an advanced 21st birthday celebration with friends. 13 of them made it. totalling to 14 of us! haha. just my birthday number. how coincidental. it was a good dinner. everyone was tired and stressed out from studying so we had some laughs, enjoyed the food and had good chats. it was a good time for everyone to catch up too. thanks guys. i appreciated it. especially for making time for me during this stressful exam period. a BIG THANK YOU! :) love you guys so much!
somehow, something just feels missing. i can't identify what. but i just feel it. sigh. why?
i'm so tired now. i'm gonna head to bed. goodnight. photos some other time. browse fb.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
i realised i am scared to be alone. i am scared to be left out. i am scared of what others think of me. but why am i so scared? :(
i love the comfort and warmth of home. with family members in close reach and everything within arm's length. i am too comfortable. i may be independent but yet i still have insecurities. i am trying to come to terms with myself and accept myself for who i am. to appreciate my flaws and strengths and not to pursue what is not me. i want to be me. and i want to enjoy being me. why be like others when you can be distinct?
learning to love myself...
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
give me a stress pill.
i think my body has released too much stress hormones. i feel odd. like everything's not right. i think i gave myself too much pressure that my body refuses to perform now. pfft.
anyways, it's 18days to finals now. i hope i don't die halfway. give me strength.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
i just got back from lunch with stan and his father and some of our other friends. stan's dad's in town so he wanted to have lunch with stan's friends to meet up with them. so it was dim sum at landmark restaurant!
victor, jo and i went to church in the morning before we went to pick daisy up and head over to stan and van's place. mass was pushed 1/2hr later due to winter. so we were kinda running late. stan was pretty worried that we couldn't get a table at the restaurant so he was calling to check (and they couldn't get us a big table till after 1pm) and was getting damn kan chiong! so his dad was asking him to relax and all and that we can always split and yada yada. thankfully sarah managed to find her way (she couldn't initially) and took a number (to wait).
but as we got there, and they noticed how we were dressed, they showed us the way in. impressive. haha.
so there was 10 of us for lunch and we had a really good time. chatting and laughing away. it was kinda like revenge time as stan's dad tamed stan with all the rebuttals. it was really hilarious. a great time i must admit. :) time passed so quickly! we practically had a 4hr long lunch. but we were all enjoying ourselves. and we could see that stan's father was enjoying his time too! haha. with all the entertainment contributed by all of us. indeed a good time.
then we went to yuen's for a quick grab before we headed back since all of us were going to do some studying, van had to meet turts for marketing project and well victor has soccer. oh. and i discovered that someone is in brisbane too. didn't know that. ha. i've seen here around but i wasn't really sure it was her. and now i know. for sure. thanks victor. thanks facebook. but it doesn't really bother me anymore. :) it's just. ohhh...
oh wells. i'm not sure what i'm going to be up to for now. because the eyes are heavy and they tell me they need some shuteye but then i have work to complete i'm not sure what i should do. hmmm....
27days to finals.
Monday, May 11, 2009
life's been good in brisbane. mid-sem exams are over and now it's
32 more days to my final exams. more studying.
i've got my study plan all worked out and i'm gonna make sure i have that discipline to stick to it. about the next thing i need to do is to push myself to exercise! HA. i've been procrastinating on that bit for a long time.
oh wells. happy belated mothers' day mommy and grandma! i miss you guys very much! just sent out your packages and you should be receiving it by this week if not next monday! been thinking of my mom's mee siam. heh.
had a nice chat with both my grandma and my mom yesterday to wish them happy mothers' day and to catch up on what's been happening in their lives. then i called again today to tell my mom that i've sent out her present and managed to get hold of my dad too! :) i realised how much i missed them and i could sense how much my dad misses me and loves me. despite the financial struggles he may be facing, he still puts my needs before his. perfect fatherly figure. i'm so blessed. my mom always makes sure i'm emotionally stable and tries to crack me up. ahhh... the feeling is simply indescribable. family love.
it's only being far apart that you hold these things close to heart. you treasure them more than ever and it makes you a warmer and more loving person only. thanks for the life lessons.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
as the days go by, i'm still discovering who i am. what kind of a person am i and what should i project myself to be?
am i what i truly am? do my actions coincide with my words? i've been pondering a bit and i think i'm beginning to change once more. i don't deny i've become a tad more skeptical and weary of the peeps around me. i think i've become a bit more selfish although at the same time sensitive to people's actions. i have myself guarded but yet i go soft when people are nice.
i don't want to hurt people but yet i want certain things achieved. how should i go about it then? being caught in these situations sometimes gets on your nerves! like... WHAT SHOULD I DO? compromise? give in? put your feet down? be firm? walk away?
learning to be a better person.
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
it's been an emotional ride for me. i've always thought i'd do well alone. i guess i'm wrong. i think i'm really really thankful for the group of friends i have here... who have provided lots of support for me. great friends! these are definitely friends worth treasuring and keeping! friends for life man.
but well, it's been an emotional ROLLERCOASTER for me. it's a blend of feelings that stir up inside me. but i'll say i'm still fine and getting along pretty alright. mid exams are around the corner and everyone's busy studying. i really can't wait to have a break.
but well, i've been making great friends! and i love it. i miss my family back home though. really want to go back to singapore in june! haha. miss the fooood. but i'm still surviving. we cook all the time and we usually cook asian food. so it's cool. :)
alrighties. that's about it. just some rants. this blog's dead. boo.
