Friday, September 30, 2005
Why...
Do you always do this to me
Why...
Couldn't you just see it through me
How come
You act like this
Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe
I was the only one to fall
I can feel I can feel you near me
Even though you're far... a-way
I can feel I can feel you baby
Why...
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day...
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me
Are you and me still together
Tell me
D'you think we could last forever
Tell me
Why
Hey...
Listen to what we're not saying
Let's play...
A different game than what we're playing
Try...
To look at me and really see my heart
insomnia.
i'm currently suffering from that.
couldn't get to sleep the whole night.
joce came over to accompany me at 4.
sat by the road and talked cock.
she was just trying to help me keep some stuff out.
before i start thinking and feeling all shitty again.
it was quite a good thing.
talked bout loads of stuff.
especially the times in pri and sec sch.
those times on the school bus,
all the shit we did in sec school.
memories. it was great.
and the carefree times in pri school.
we just wish we could return there.
i miss the times in sec sch.
where everything was mapped out for you.
no such thing as responsibilities and stuff.
unlike now..
you're all alone and independent.
back den, you needn't worry.
school was the place we laugh, cry, sulk, have fun, etc.
memories, they'll remain.
siggh. i'm in so much agony.
anywaes, she left at bout 6+
took a cab back.
she lives near me anyways.
got back up.
text him. thinking he wouldnt reply.
he did. but afterwhich he didnt.
fell asleep thereafter.
BUT... couldnt sleep thru.
kept waking up.
and he never replied.
sigggh.
by bout 1230, i gave up.
i couldnt get back to sleep.
my heart feels squeezed. literally.
it's like i have difficulty breathing.
i hella know something's wrong.
arggghs. fuck it larhs.
PLEASE END THIS SHIT.
There's always that one person that will always have your heart,
You never see it coming cause you're blinded from the start
is this really true?
i dare not think so.
if only people could learn to be satisfied.
why must they always want more?
GREEDINESS.
i'm not the only one babe.
you too. i'm not enough for you.
im in distraught.
can't help it.
partial insomnia.
think that's what i'm suffering from.
how should i describe today?
well, things went smoothly.
so it should be pretty ok.
towning i went.
yupps. my forte.
den it was over to his place.
it was pleasant.
no fights, no arguments.
that's an improvement.
ended off pretty well.
oh wells.
i'm sure things will be better.
FOM paper on wed was OK.
but.. it was mentally exhausting.
so much to write.
and hell if you didn't study any one part,
you're in for it.
thank god i didn't miss one out.
PHEW.
3hr paper. i survived! hahas.
i finished it in 2. so yeaps.
an emotional blurr (my current state)
i wanna revisit places we used to frequent.
the airport, esplanade(choc.fondue!), suntec,
your place(in the east), bk(where we met),
so many places. so many memories.
when it was just the both of us.
siggh. danngs. i should think no more.
it's only gonna cause emotional scarring.
ANYWAYS,
i'm learning to appreciate the littlest things.
be happy with what i currently have.
even if it hurts, what's this little torture?
without suffering there can be no compassion.
afterall, we get tested over and over again.
though i wish it wasn't so...
i don't know what to add.
my heart belongs to him.
i just wish things were like before...
stop me from thinking too much.
take me from this place. let me breathe your love. let us be in love...
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately
you've been acting so cold (didn't you say)
if there's a problem we should work it out
so why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you don't want to talk to me girl (tell me)
okay I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long (I wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly game
don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
it's not me who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more
I know that I've made a few mistakes
but never thought things would turn out this way
doesn't make sense to me now that you're gone (I see it all so clearly)
me at the door with you in a state
giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
this song you played to me once after an argument.
or rather a break up. it hurt really bad.
and i just can't help but listen to it repeatedly.
reminding myself that it COULD happen.
to mentally prepare to accept the consequences if it turned sour.
i just don't know what to expect.
my heart simply belongs to you alone.
been embracing myself with nice lil comforting songs.
if only i had YOUR support.
went to PS.
studied half of FOM.
walked down to town.
went heeren 1st.
nothing much.
looked at numflipflops.
HAVAINAS! i want more!
GIVE IT TO ME... PLEASE?!
F&S's down for renovation.
looked around for a bit.
den it's over to cine.
nothing much there.
went zara at taka.
den over to wisma.
forever21, mango, surfbabes, topshop, etc.
so much to shop, so lil money.
waiting for my allowance and pay to come in.
*SMILES.
and... as i was walking into mango,
at approximately 630pm,
tempted to touch(remix) came on the stereos.
and.. YOU messaged.
and den one of your favourite songs played.
dale don dale.
woww. such coincidence.
i must admit it dampened my mood.
i managed to try and keep you out as much as possible.
because i had to focus for tomorrow's exam.
but at this point, i couldn't help it no more.
thoughts just started flying inside my head.
it became so clouded and obscure,
i was just stoned. moodless.
left town,
i became pretty quiet.
thinking of whether to reply or not.
yes. i submitted.
i can't deny. i miss you dearly.
but it's still hurting.
i'm really confused.
i wonder.. am i not enough for you?
can you trust me?
can you respect me and give me space?
i dont know. thoughts just lingered..
new and old..
lord, guide me.
i really don't know what's next.
what should be my next move.
i don't want answers from others.
i want it from you.
may your will be done.
should i be tested once again,
i'll accept.
I drift, I burn, I fly
When you sing lullabies
I'm helpless, I'm yearning
I'm like the putty in your hands
I laugh, I dream, I cry
When you take me on a roller coaster ride
You see me through and through
You see just who i am
Just take my hand and
Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you
my heart bleeds for you. if only we can turn the clock back to those happy times. i miss that. i miss you.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
things i see are blinding me.
it aches so bad i could bleed thru tears.
it's painful but i'll be strong.
for in my heart, there you'll always be.
like the wind, i can't see it..
but.. i can feel it.
i'm late.
gotta get going.
blog later.
without sufferings, there can be no compassion
i can't get to sleep.
just simply thinking too much.
it's
2.48am.a time i'd never forget.
put me to sleep.
forever.
my love for you was unconditional.
watched a walk to remember just now.
listening to mandy moore's cry.
it was simply touching.
den listened to more than words on the radio.
felt it was so meaningful.
here goes...
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I don't want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do
If my heart was torn in two,
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
If I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
Is more than words, more than what you say
is the things you do,oh yeah
Is more than words, more than what you say
is the things you do oh yeah
Now that I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do
If my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
If I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
Monday, September 26, 2005
CRUSHED.
EMPTY.
LOST.
CONFUSED.
HURT.
pick one.
they all describe my current situation.
i'm left in suspense.
but then again,
i've to learn to manage.
gone? i don't know if you are..
but i've to move on i reckon.
econs was crazy today.
think i'm gonna fail miserably.
marketing's next.
i needa score.
but i'm just not in the right frame of mind.
trying to garner as much concentration as possible.
but i seem to be failing.
too many distractions.
too little time.
trials and tribulations.
inevitable.
siggh. i wanna go away.
take me away. please?
i wanna leave.
i'm not hoping for much.
just to be happy again.
the romance may have died, but the love will forever remain...
BURNT.
just finished "STUDYING"
right. didnt absorb anything.
gonna flunk it real bad.
moreover i'm just unstable right now.
VERY. thanks to someone.
i'm tearing apart.
mentally and emotionally.
argghs. FRUSTRATION.
Sunday, September 25, 2005
emptiness.
that's all i feel.
i wanna feel FULL.
when will happiness set in?
i'm trying...
very hard indeed.
i just hope the problems can be rectified.
AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.
the longer we evade it,
the worse it's gonna be.
considering the distance evident currently.
econs tmr.
gotta get down to studying.
wish me luck.
hella need it.
babes, you're my shining star.
never let the light go out.
Saturday, September 24, 2005
buckets of tears?
sweat not.
icky face so tight.
emotionless i remain.
sore eyes & a painful cheek.
let me suffer not.
waiting..
again. that's all i do.
another day wasted.
faith. something i'll hold on to.
im confused.
emotions running.
i don't know how i really feel.
it's a HUGE mixture.
i really want this to work.
let's make it better.
if possible..
transparency of the heart i'll try to portray.
just give me fully yours.
and make your love known to me.
for in this world lies mysteries.
and one of them i'm trying to solve.
i'm not making any sense.
forgive me.
i'm not in the right state of mind.
another time...
Friday, September 23, 2005
i hate it when plans get ruined.
argghs. but who wanted it?
oh wells. i'll just live with it.
there's always tomorrow right?
you bet. and tomorrow shall be better.
my head's in a big whirl.
it's like the devil and angel fighting.
and yes i'm not listening.
i'm blocking it out.
AS MUCH AS I CAN.
though the devil tempts real well.
ANYWAYS.
i seriously hope things get back on track soon.
the last drop of energy left in me's depleting.
and i'm losing brain cells real rapidly.
just please. let this ordeal end ya?
righties.
studied wee bits today.
ECONS. exam on monday.
pray for me.
gotta score fer this.
righto. that's it for today.
tmr... it'll be better. it must be.
happiness,
i yearn..
Thursday, September 22, 2005
RESPECT.something i get from friends.
thanks.
it's hella
piercing.but i'll endure..
for just a WEE bit more. x)
i'm simply looking on the
brighter side.
there's a limit still.
just hope it won't be breached.
and as for those who can't respect?
go back to pre school.
it's good to watch your gap sometimes.
well oh well.
pacc? sucked.
but i thought it went pretty ok.
considering i din practise AT ALL.
-smiles. one down, two more to go!
*WHISTLES.
there's a lot up in my head right now.
i wish to babble no more.
but i must say rough patches are unavoidable now.
pffft. as much as i hate it, i can't help it.
i'm battling the devil in me.
PUNK ROCK 101! the song to go....
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
shit happens.
everything's fucked now. x)
yeah. FUCKED.
really, i'm thinking of going into hiding.
just be uncontactable.
take a break.. from everything.
siggh. life... what more can you ask?
things could have been better...
it COULD have...
PACC tmr.
i'm busted.
came back at 11.
finished reading it..
but havent practised. not one shit.
im so dead.
sigggh. lord. help me.
SAVE ME FROM THIS BURNING FIRE.
im at jean's place right now.
came over last night.
stayed over.
watched last samurai for a bit when i got here,
den talked a bit.
rolled around.
den slept.
and here i am now.
supposed to be studying for pacc.
bout to bathe and all.
heh. alex is here too.
sweet lil couple.
they just look really compatible.
cute. x)
right. i need to shit.
nature calls.
i'll blog sometime tonight.
gotta study after bathing.
den head over to his place.
*winks.
cheerios.
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
i finally broke down.
sweat it all out. the pain..
simply excruciating.
i find it so calming..
listening to all the punk rock music
i used to listen to daily back in sec 2&3.
that was when it was all carefree.
little problems and simply just having fun.
guyys. they were never a problem.
punk rock rules my life.
just downloaded blink, american hi-fi, GC and bowling for soup.
me LOVE, back den.
shall be, once again. x)
it soothes the burning soul.
PUNK ROCK 101!
a blend of emotions.
sometimes it just turns out horrible.
take me outta this state.
please do.
someone, anyone.
bring me back to yesteryears.
take me back to where i belong.
make me trouble free.
i'll thank you tenfolds.
make me happy. just once more.
Monday, September 19, 2005
sweet.
after last night,
things have improved.
keep it that way.
i'm lovin' it. x)
just had chicken curry.
been some time since mommy cooked.
yummy.
but i think it's not quite up to standard.
it's somehow not very right.
maybe there's not enough coconut milk.
bahhs. i'm not sure.
so i've no plans for today.
what should i do?
i dunno. =//
tell me what to do.
im waiting for a call that can change my day.
yupps. remove that boredom and make me feel loved.
COMPANY. yes. that's what i can get if that call comes.
but that company will be special. *nods. sure will.
it's only the beginning of the day...
so there's nothing much to blog bout.
maybe tonight. *winks. ;)
Sunday, September 18, 2005
im just boiling inside.
dissatisfaction running in my blood.
what can i do?
nothing.
absolutely nothing.
sigh. dread it.
thought it'll be a good day.
turned out having to
put my patience to the test again.
riggght.
really wasnt happy today.
always giving things up.
what do i get in return?
argghs.
speak no more larhs.
i'll zip the gap of mine.
i'm STILL waiting.
MAKE things better.
PUHHHLEASE.
MAKE ME HAPPY.
Friday, September 16, 2005
it's burning inside.
wait. that's all you make me do.
clueless. that's how you make me feel.
nuts. that's what you've made me become.
please take away my anguish.
i love you. i loved you. and will continue to.
where's the trust?
it's dissipated.
torn.that's how i feel right now.
wake me up when this war is over.just treat me well. all i ask...
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
danngs. what luck.
everything seemed to go smoothly.
just until i was about to go off.
hahas. fell down while trying to get on the cab.
fell off the pavement onto the road.
weak ankle luhhs.
got a wee bit grazed. =//
accks.
right. so itab test's tmr.
i can't seem to be bothered bout practising.
i think i'm hella gonna fail.
unless a miracle happens.
i dun even know what macros are bout.
and dere i go fearing bout my grade.
like what the hell. it's a bound failure. grrr..
okok. i dun wanna think so much.
RELEASE THE STRESS.
BREATHE...
lalala. after tmr,
i officially dun hafta go to sch till next thurs.
which marks my 1st paper.
ACCOUNTS. doink!
yes. i've gotta start studying.
probably do so tmr after test. x)
that's it for today guys. cheerios.
VOILA!
im so happy puuhhlease.
i finally got 80 for my stats test.
i know. i said i wanted full marks.
but im scared to try.
see.. my many attempts.
1st: 50
2nd: 50
3rd: 40
4th: 35
5th: 65 (i started becoming smarter)
6th: 65
7th: 80
now you see why i'm scared?
took me pains to achieve that mark.
hahahahas. i'm stupid luhhhs.
okae. considering i DIN study AT ALL.
so... after the 4th, i got so sick.
started printing out all the answers.
after i got 80, i rejoiced.
but im starting to be unaccepting of that grade.
shall try to better that mark some time later.
right now. i'm just gonna take a break and chill.
aights. blog again tonight. x))
if ONLY YOU were here.
it's another day of boredom i reckon?
date me out. someone.
i wouldnt mind studying with you.
*winks. and i mean it luhhs.
i WILL studyy..
right. so i have a list of things to do:
1) clear my room
2) copy notes
3) study for exams
4) try to score for my stats online test
5) go shopping. (i just had to add that in)
alrights. so i'm bored out at home. save my soul?
growls. haven't been sleeping well the past week or so.
BUT.. i had a good night's sleep last night.
was really peaceful.. and woke up peacefully too. x)
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
grumpy as usual.
cabbed to sch dis morn.
was sorta late.
EC presentation.
marked the end of the module.
did prettaye ok.
everyone streamed in late too.
part of the class left to town tgr.
me inclusive.
chilled outside bk at far east.
waited till like 11+
walked over to goodwood park hotel.
was still early.
so we hung around the lounge area.
took lotsa pictures. fun!
waited for the rest.
den headed to the coffee lounge.
all of us were starving.
waited for them to say we could start.
den all of us rushed like we hadnt eaten before.
muahahahahahahas.
we ate a lot.
the prawns were HELLA good. ate quite some bits.
my usual buffet routine.
cold cut, salad, main course, sides, desserts, fruits.
sadly, i didnt have space for ice cream.
it was MOVENPICK! hahas.
anywaes, we took LOADSA photos.
i sorta figured out some function in shimin's cam.
this multi shot thingy.
and everyone was glued to it.
had so much fun with it.
total damage: 607 bucks.
left the hotel and we still took MORE pictures.
especially outside the hotel and with the gigantic durian.
and when we finally left the place for good,
we couldnt decide where to go.
so we split.
mel and i left.
we took a sneak break outside tangs.
den left for NEL.
what i did after that is none of your business.
probe me and i won't divulge whatsoever.
you can try and try... be as determined as you can be.
if i'm happy, i'll tell you. hahas. MAKE ME HAPPY!.
that's the key.. nahhs. nothing interesting after that larhs.
but it brought a bit of tears and some smiles. x)
that's it for today. gonna be uploading some pics to friendster.
Monday, September 12, 2005
my heart just froze.
life's a fucking BITCH.
just QUIT larhs. i've had enough.
Everyday, we be burnin' not concernin' what nobody wanna say.anywaes, i don't fuckin care luhhs.
like daryl always say... JUST CHILL man.
CHILLAX. that's what im gonna do.
right. i've gotta presentation tmr and a class gathering.
good wood park hotel. lunch buffet. x)
out PT's gonna sorta give us a treat i think?
but it's not too nice so guess we'll all pay on our own.
ha. gonna extort 25bucks from my dad. xD -grins.
coming to think of stuff,
i'm sorta getting sick of relationships.
maintaining one's sucha chore. *yawns.
lies lies lies..
how long can a person live on in this world by lying?
sickening assholes. the truth is ze best!
really, after seeing enough,
simplicity serves the best life.
one of complexity and complications is gonna bring you DOWN.
i've seeked it and it hella did bring me down.
fucka. hahas. i asked for it anywaes.
always complicating stuff. i'm a drat.
-growls. i'm lazy to add on larhs. my life's a mess.
bloggin'. im seriously getting SICK of it.
sorry for my lack of vocab.
thinking of those who cant even pass english.
i feel sad for them.. they're losing out so much. hahas.
i take pride in my command of english.
owe it to my dad and my schools. x)
oh.. and my company of friends.
IJ rox. you've gotta agree to that.
ehhs. bored larhhs. nothing else to add.
my life's a bore. shoot me. but i'm getting sick of running into details of what happens.
i think it's pretty meaningless? unless it carries some significance.
or else it's just plain RETARDED. who else wud wanna know? pfft.
my new love: PRETTY RICKY!
my new fave word: SPUNK
my
new <3: same old shit.
My body, your body (it's burnin' up)
Sunday, September 11, 2005
im getting lazy to update entries.
but anywaes, here goes.
i'm stuck on sean paul's we'll be burning. hahas.
here's the lyrics:
Just gimme di trees and mek we smoke it yo (smoke it yo)
It don't mek we please so don't provoke it yo (voke it yo)
We nuh need nuh speed so we nuh gon coke it yo (coke it yo)
Set we mind at ease we gotta take it slow
So when yuh see di S.P. floatin', don't provoke him
Cau di weed weh we smokin' need fi soakin'
Fastin' fi di medication, and di best hygrade a Jamaican
When we a bun a weed we supportin' and promotin'
Lau di crack and di coke ting yeah we soaking
Herb a di healin' of di nation
Legalize it right now we wanna blaze one
[chorus]
Everyday, we be burnin' not concernin' what nobody wanna say
We be earnin' dollars turning cau we mind deh pon we pay
Some got gold and all dem diamonds all we got is Mary J
Legalize it, time you recognize it
This purple haze it mek mi crazy
Mek mi write new tune yeah dat's what pays me
Cau dat not di only occupation
Goin' to get some I give yuh medication
When a farmer grows it he knows to close it
Economical benefit help fi those who a fi deh yah pon di hard jugglin
Cau di system only keep man struggling
Studyin people a use it don't abuse it
Cau di concentration well reputed
Dat's why herb man dem a di wise one
And it found on di grave of King Solomon
And it good fi di eye sight and di chest sight
And it give yuh nuff inside just gimme di light
And, mek we blaze it we should a neva waste it
[chorus]
Again, we be burnin not concernin what nobody wanna say
We be earnin dollars turning cau we mind deh pon we pay
Some got gold and all dem diamonds all we got is Mary J
Legalize it, time you recognize it
OOOOH weeet!
anywaes, today was SWEET. love it.
please make it dis way everyday.
oh.. but please get rid of the eye sores and obstacles.
*SMILES.
yesyes. the perfect catch was GREAT.
hahas. wad's greater? no school tmr! MUAHAHAHAHAS.
STUDY BREAK darlings. DROOL!
ehhs. im lazy to update larhs. some other time. nights.
there are so many upcoming parties!!! danngs.
september 11. *tribute to all those who suffered the loss of their loved ones and those who had to suffer because of those terrorists. doomed are they.
Saturday, September 10, 2005
ok. i'm not exactly satisfied with my other post.
so here comes another one. x)
rigght.
i miss IJ! ugghs. been talking to ex-ij girls.
it's like.. woahh. the ATTITUDE.
it simply lives in everyone of us.
we may lead different lives now,
but that spirit in us simply lives on...
i miss being around these pple.
everyone's the same..
unlike now, it's so blardie irritating.
some pple who simply cant watch their mouths,
some who are retardedly annoying,
some simply just unbearable.
-growls.
thinking of the past,
i wish i could dwell in my childhood.
never to grow up.
never experience the problems of a typical teenager.
never having to make decisions.
and the list goes on..
arghs. the process of growing up is sucha CHORE.
and i'm getting sick and tired of it all.
i hate to put up with the sickening assholes around me.
i just wanna stay stagnant. of course. together with the world.
can time just pause at my favourite moment?
and thinking of that, i don't know which is..
i used to.. but not anymore..
there's like a whole greyed and blurred vision in my mind.
i can't picture anything. it's all murky and obscure.
i need a good cleaner man. wipe it all out.
LET ME SEE AGAIN. clear my vision.
argghs. i'm bullshitting. i've had enough of blogging for today.
i WUN return for another shot at it. =/
i hella swear my blog entries have lost its essence.
but anywaes, i think i'm a prettaye sad case..
staying in on a saturday. totally suck.
i'm hella bored and i've seriously nothing to do.
there's no one online for me to talk to.
and besides, i DID step out of the house.
for a useless cause.
i usually have seminars to attend on weekends.
so i went for it just like any other day.
however, i went early this time.
and to my dismay, after 3 whole hours, i did NOTHING.
it was rather annoying? when i couldve spent my time more wisely.
but after all, how much more can i complain?
i've earned myself 50 bucks plus travel allowance.
so yeah. i should really shut up.
really, i'm feeling deprived.
of everything.
the past week didn't go too well.
it was DEAD BORING.
what's more? my hols are coming.
well.. my study break has started.
'xams are in a week's time.
i haven't started. of course.
but im just feeling more alone than anything.
friends.. i may have them by me, but...
i can't pester them all the time.
i have HIM. but.. he's not exactly THERE.
and things have been cropping up so much..
we hardly have time for each other.
furthermore, i've been grumpy and moody.
i seriously don't know what i want anymore.
arghhs. screw it. life's a BITCH.
secrets... is it wrong to keep some?
i don't know... but i know that secrets can become a burden.
eradication of secrets is quite a good idea.
why keep 'em? be TRUTHFUL.
i dunno why but im annoyed sitting here.
my life's been ever changing. RAPIDLY.
uggh. i've been ranting and bitching and going crazy.
i swear luhhs. BREATHE. that's what i've gotta do.
arghs. im lazy to blog on.. will blog some other time.
TERRIBLY ANNOYED..
over? NOTHING. maybe some..
Monday, September 05, 2005
jealousy? i don't know.
but i know my emotions are a whirl.
i can't control my temperament.
it's like ever changing.
even me myself can't predict.
i'd advise you not to step on my toes.
anyhows, sorry to those i've angered.
=( i really am sorry...
i was bored in class some time ago and started doodling food for thought messages.
so here goes:
The spectrum of colours represent different emotions. A blend of colours give you a mixture of it. Anger, Jealousy, Confusion and Cowardice, Each represented by Red, Green, Blue and yellow respectively. These are the colours that paint our lives.--------------------------------------------------------------
Frustrations never seem to escape our minds. They only keep conquering with brutal force. It is only with one's confidence and might, Can they be trampled out of sight.nothing great. but i thought i'd like to share...
it simply reminds me of the days back at sjc..
doodling on... poems.. they were common.
i miss my ij uniform, i miss secondary sch.
i just miss all the fun i had back then.
hey! i need to go get new tops. i seem to be running outta clothes to wear.
TOPSHOP anyone? i need bangkok! danngs. jean! come back! QUICK! i need to go
shopping. oh... and if possible, jill... quickly finish your Os.. den we can hang out in
town and go berserk! muahahas. i miss the fun we had for your
LAST YEAR's birthday.. was it last year? i forgot =x seemed like a long time ago. running around town like idiots. but it was hella fun. screaming shouting acting like fools. and i miss the
cine crowd. -growls. oh yeahh.
PHOTOTAKING guy, which eventually we managed to get his number thanks to amira. hahas. i miss those days. really.
i miss sch. the ij girls. the ij customs.. all these will remain in me forever.
a true blue ij girl. 10 years in that uniform. the memories...
the english environment. now im stuck amongst
CHINESE people. i should have appreciated while i was still at school. pfft.
to each for himself <- i hate that slogan. slap it. it's
SELFISH.
FUCK THE WORLD AND ALL ITS RICHES.
i dunno. i just felt like saying that.
i'm super grumpy right now. i'm irritated and freakin' annoyed.
i wanna thrash things around. can i can i? PLEASE?
argghs. who cares.
REBEL REBEL REBEL.im sucha
TEENAGER. get me outta this phase.
PFFFT.
- i need to diet
- i need to study
- i need shopping
- i need sailing
- i need my friends
- i need EVERYTHING
GIVE IT ALL TO ME! MUAHAHS.seriously, i think im going nuts. yea. i am. woke up from the wrong side of bed. -growls. anywaes, one more week to study break, and two more weeks to 'xams. ugghs. now you know why i needa study. hahas. but you know what? it's DAMN pathetic. two weeks of exams, but i only have papers on 3 days. hahahas. and thereafter, it's a month of holidays.
CELEBRATE WITH ME. x)
hahahs!
weeeeeeeeee!
PONNED school.
i know i'm a BAD KID.
i told ya. descendent of a family of BAD ASS KIDS.
muahahahas.
my cousin came up with that.
all the bad ass kids. hmmms.
but seriously, our elders arent.
wonder why we are.
blahblahblah.
ITAB SENT. DONE.
i hope nothing crops up.
BTW, i'm getting SUPER UBERLY GRUMPY and MOODY.
steer clear. it's UBER bad MOODSWINGS.
RARRR!
ugggh i'm damn moody luhhs.
grrrr....
Sunday, September 04, 2005
i'm so pissed right now.
it's like everyone CAN'T understand me.
ARGHHHHS.
FUCK IT.
ITAB'S NOT DONE.
DATELINE'S TOMORROW.
AND WE'RE FIGHTING.
ARGHHHHHHHHHS.
SCREW THIS SHIT.
ugggh. im so irritated. i forgot my links are gone too! PEEEPS. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE RELINK ME AND GIVE ME YOUR ADDIES. THANK YOU VERY MUCH. x)
rights. so this template sucks. of cos it does. but fuck it. i dun have the time to do up one right now. plus i so needa go get photoshop. pffft. yea.. remind me. i hate to go low on budget. daanngs. i still owe peeps money. well. ok. that just makes it my mom (those can delay) and jean. yeaps. owe her 40. gotta return her when she comes back from bangkok.
that so reminds me. i've gotta do her EC ppt for her. yeaps. i know. im sucha good friend. oh wells. im her bestie. so... no complains. yupps. she's getting birks for me anywaes.. so it's a trade off.
hmmms... i hate dis template! and i still cant get over the fact that my archives are gone! lost! forever.. ugggggggggh. my memories. sigggh. it'll take time..
arghs fuck larhs. my mind's clouded with lotsa stuff. no time to elaborate. shall do so some other time. -nods.
cheerios.
yes. thanks to a sweet someone who fuckin ripped my blog off and now it's GONE. forever. uggh. my dear memories and the pains i took in maintaining my blog for 2 years or so.. everything's down the drain. yes. bitch. rant on.
anywaes, here comes a new one. one of much bigger rants and i don't give a fuck anymore. x) smile. stop me from bitching. i know you can't.
;) ATTITUDE PLEASE.
