Friday, October 07, 2005
i feel all crummy.
not feeling too good.
physically and emotionally.
just got back awhile ago.
anyhows...
was prettaye
pissed today.
but i'm controlling...
to think you went to play soccer,
and forgot bout our outing..
that's quite selfish isn't it.
was pissed but i'd let it slip.
i realised... there's no pt arguing.
you just wanna do your things.
and you want things your way.
i'd rather use the soft approach.
if you can't be there, i'd self soothe.
if you can, then so be it.
but really,
i wish i could prolong the period in your uncle's car.
like lock the both of us in..
it'd be immaculate.
but danngs. that will never be reality.
sigggh. just my lil fantasies.
hit town again.
with the babes.
walked around a lot.
bitched a WHOLE lot.
den had dinner and left.
emotionally,
i'm getting stronger.
i think i'd rather be what i was before.
but with a lil strength.
i became too strong.
but i guess it's time to tone down.
i feel that i have to be firm.
but yet again, i need to be
sacrificial.for love, we commit.
looks like i hafta be wad i was before.
give in hmmm?
maybe that'll work.
like i said, the
SOFT approach...
that's it for today.
i have so many things on my mind.
so many things to say.
but it'll all come out repetitive.
hushh now. i shall leave it unsaid.
