Saturday, October 01, 2005
was just looking at friends' profiles on friendster.
all those nice little photographs.
so much happiness.
i'm just envious and pretty jealous.
when will i feel that joy again?
i'm deeply scarred.
i've slipped into depression.
my mind runs wild and it kills my soul.
i'm weakening by the minute.
love...
a painful or happy experience?
i'd say a mixture.
sometimes it hurts so bad,
sometimes it's just immaculate.
right now,
i love you.
i want you.
but can i have you?
like you YOU.
the real you.
grant me this one wish.
make me whole.
if you want me, tell me.
but if you want another, tell me too.
i'd let you go.
but i'll still be loving you.
i want the best for you.
that's what love is right?
i'm willing to let go for your happiness.
i'm struggling.
but i'll survive.
my mind causes me so much pain.
from the constant thoughts.
it will end. i'm sure it will.
make me stronger.
let me deal with it.
even if it was harsher than it already is.
for love we commit.
