CAUTION: LONG ENTRY.

school dis morning..
went to mt alvernia hospital.
baby's mom's discharged today.
went back to his place.
sat around for a bit.
den took an afternoon nap.
den it's home to complete the script.


when i left..
i was walking towards hougang mrt..
i took a good glance at the surroundings.
brought back many memories.
the times i used to hang out around the area after school..
how when i was in 1 integrity...
a bunch of 11 of us..
me, liying, sharmin, carolyn, sarah, kelly, adeline, carolina, rachel, audrey, meixian..
occasionally some others would join...
we'd go to hougang mall for lunch..
den we'd go to punggol cc to watch the montfort guys play basketball.
how we used to sit there, chit chat, giggle and watch them.
how fun...
den we'd play with them...
talk to them..
and i remember how we were all quite shy..
guess i was the only one open enough to talk to them.
hahahas. used to help them relay messages..
and then we frequently went to rivervale mall...
read a lot of chinese comics..
talked quite a bit in chinese..
yadayadayada.
but it was a whole load of fun.
never studied once. hahahas.
i still remember..
the back of the class.
all of us would gather there during free time.
and we'd talk so much!!
and it was great cos it was a big group.
and all those that only hung out with us occasionally,
they'd join us too!


and then the group broke up when we were streamed.
i went on to 2integrity...
while a lot of them dropped classes.
made a new circle of friends...
nevertheless...
we still gathered at the lockers before school..
but of cos.. this time it was on the second level.
felt great somehow. hahas. sec 2 already.
we'd still talk and catch up..
but only a few of us stuck together.
we met a group of st gabs guys still..
those of us who still stuck around..
hahas. we used to have a habit of meeting new guys.
explains why some of us went to mavis tuition centre.
hahahas. some went there for tuition,
some tagged along to look at guys..



after which jean came into the picture.
she came to school one day..
and she needed company that afternoon.
to go to bishan park secondary to watch a soccer match.
st gabs was up against some other school.
obviously, she was there to watch sebastian..
he was the captain of the C division team then.
from then onwards, jean and i became really close..
and we became best friends! x))


den i started hanging out with jean and all..
yeah.. and i started speaking a lot more english.
dumped that speaking chinese habit.
after all.. i was never good at that language.
hahahas. yeaps. and then started hanging out with jocelyn...
she was a ball of fun.
very humourous and totally WILD. x)
so that was when i started going to town A LOT.
85 straight to town...
amira slowly came into the picture.
and a few others here and there.
on some days,
we'd just go have lunch,
den go over to my place..
hahahas. so jean could go meet sebastian.
or watch him train on training days.
and we'd play netball under the block.
and... BREAK LIGHTS.
*winks at jean. hahahhas.
on other days, we'd have lunch at hougang mall,
den go hang out at jean's old place.
watch movies or just slack around.
it was fun...
we practically hung out EVERYDAY.
and it was reflected in my results.


this carried on till sec 3.
i dropped another class.
hahahas. now i was in 3 humility.
the class jean was in in sec 2.
but she dropped another class.
so she went to 3 grace.
anyhows.. we were still best friends.
started hanging out a lot with amira, jean and joce.
we got really close to the st gabs guys.
especially those in soccer.
shaun hedger came into the picture.
and then toad, brandon, mark and all..
slowly ernest and all came into the picture.
hahahas. i think it was then..
that i started knowing alot alot of guys.
without doubt,
sec 3 was like disaster.
all that trouble we got into,
all the uniform problems..
and yeah. me and jean getting kicked out of the probates.
hahahas. yeah. we were on our way to prefecthood.
but cos of our uniform problems..
we were kicked out. hahahas.
full of shit man.
anyways,
i hated doing duties...
having to come early and all that stuff.
oh wells.
and sec 3 was the period i started doing nonsense.
cutting my wrists and all.
and i realised how dumb i was.


sec 3 passed by.
my results started slipping...
and den sec 4 came.
started hanging out alot with jillian.
she already transferred to naval base of cos.
met up with her a lot of times in town.
it all started when i went onto irc again.
and den we started chatting a whole lot.
and den on friendster she realised i knew someone she knew.
who was her schoolmate's ex bf.
and yeah.. that was weiliang.
so i got to know gillian. hahas. his ex gf.
and with her i knew alicia and rachel..
and then with rachel i got to know yuchern and ian.
kept going to town after school without fail.
and then through gillian...
i got to know pearlynn and yuani.
from then on.. i hung out at cine like nobody's business.
went to look for them everyday without fail.
then i got to know kenny and the whole bunch of them.
and of cos.. i will never forget..
how jillian and i used to oogle at le en.
cos we found him really cute.
only thing was that he smoked.
and yeaps. we nicknamed him phototaking guy..
cos he loved taking photos of himself.
that all happend at ljs of cos.
our frequent hangout.
the other places we used to hang out at..
were cinecafe, rocky's, yoshi and outside cheers.
we simply wasting time there.. stoning.
sometimes we went shopping.
hahahas. it was fun though.


during that time...
i was with cheok..
but a lot of things happened.
after two months we broke up.
and i was rather depressed.
but oh wells. it's all in the package.


and so i started talking to kenny a lot online.
invited him for my birthday party and he came!
heh. it was whackass. and he was a lot of fun.
after that we got together just for fun..
but realised it din work out so we broke up.
sigh. it was so sudden..
cos i kinda got quite involved already.
and cos of that. i started cutting myself again.
stupidity.


anyways. time passed.
and then i got to know ben! x)
he was so sweet.
we met at bk compass pt.
he was with amir.. while i was with jillian.
from then onwards, i hung out with him a lot.
at the airport.. going to town..
and i was still at ALW attending classes.
so he'd come pick me up after lessons.
and once he got drunk in jb after going all the way there just to get me bubble gum..
how sweet. anyways, he still rushed back..
came to pick me up and den we headed to town..
watched a midnight movie..
and after that night.. we got together.
for the 1st two months or so things went perfectly well.
after which, the rollercoaster ride started.
was really scary i must say.


anyhows... i flunked my prelims cos of him..
din wanna study cos i wanted to go out with him..
though i said i went out to "study",
i actually never did! i couldnt concentrate!
hahahas. so yeahh. i did really badly i must say.
but after i got my prelim results, i woke up.
from a big big demoralising shock.
just one month before my exams..
i started studying.
and thanks to ALW, i managed to study well!
and efficiently of cos. all within a month!
yeaps. and it was a struggle for me really.
because during the one month, he wasnt there for me.
he drifted from me.
started hanging out with a bunch of newly found friends.
they got him into a lot of trouble.
and found him a new girl..
so they took him totally away from me.
realised that he cheated on me twice during that period.
it was torturous i must say.
cos i was taking my Os at the same time.
and he promised to be there after my papers to send me home.
and we already planned how the last day of my Os was gonna be.
i always hoped and wished that he would be at the bus stop.
but after every paper, i'd excitedly look out..
only to my dismay. he was NEVER there.
not even the last day.
but nevermind. that was the past.
it really hurt me real bad.
but i still went to meet him after that.
coloured my hair.
and best thing was.. halfway thru.. he left.
cos the other girl called him..
and threatened to come look for me.
i could only leave on my own then.
i still remember clearly i went to meet jaen after that in town.
oh wells. it was tough. but i've pulled through!


and then he went into boys' home.
i swear it was really really tough for me.
for the whole of december, i was on my own.
xmas on my own and all that.
den i started working for my dad..
and den he managed to come out of the home.
but was put under probation.
better than being put away, i thought.
things got better...
and then he started school...
things were still going really well..
only thing was that he got really protective.
understandable...
then was the release of my results...
i was over the moon.
11 pts! the greatest achievement in my life.
cos of that.. i got to go to the states!
to visit my relatives there.
anyways. i should stop here.
was supposed to just talk bout my secondary sch life.


anyways, i also wanna say...
how much i miss my UNIFORM!
omg. the ij uniform is the best uniform on earth.
i really missed it.
i remember the attention we used to capture..
especially when we walked in town.
even if we were the lousiest ij school..
it still made heads turn...
yeah.. i also remember..
we used to look at guys in branded sch uniforms.
schools like barker, acs i, sji, cat high, ri, so forth.
even schs like st gabs and montfort did make our heads turn.
those were the best days of my life...

*SMILES.