- janellestarr *

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY MY JEANIE POO!
MAY ALL YOUR KINKY WISHES COME TRUE!
LOVE YOU MY BESTFRIEND. ;)
with LOTSA LOVE
*HUGGS&KISSES.
(we'll celebrate after the papers)

i'm sorry i haven't been updating. been too caught up with my sickness and exams. i've really been down and out. lost my voice but now i've regained it. been too weak to actually blog and stuff... so yeah. here i am. just a couple of updates.

exams stink. i screwed up bad.

i got a hair cut. and i love it. i don't care if you don't.

i got a new phone. instead of the z500, i got the N70.

mindchamps... just keeps rocking my life.
i'm now a trainers' aide and so i'm gonna take on classes soon.
(i covered for hafiz. but i'm sorry i couldn't take your sunday class)

i've been a couch potato. haven't gone out much.

i LOVE my friends who have been there for my during this period.

i LOVE celine for being my pillar of support.

and last but not least, my darling bf who took care of me during this period while i was down and out. thanks for being sucha sweetheart. love you very much darls. ;) *HUGGIES.

just a glimpse of my new haircut.

Monday, February 20, 2006

first paper today.
later at 6pm.
PACC.
:(

i'm not quite prepared.
but what the heck?
i've gotta take a shot.
wish me all the luck.
i seriously DO need it.

butterflies in the tummy.
i feel it once again...

sorry baby.
daddy's sending me to school.
i'll see you soon.
lotsa love.
<3

Sunday, February 19, 2006

and the exams starts...
NOW!
(picks up pen and scribbles)

and yes. the dreaded exams are here.
to add on to the pressure,
i am totally not prepared.
screw it. i'm gonna flunk it.
god bless me.
god bless america.
hahas.

i won't fail.
i know i won't.
i never did,
never will.
just crossing my fingers,
and praying really hard.
that a miracle will happen.
and for some reason i'll ace it.
HA.

for now. adios.
wish me luck peeps.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

LAST project for the semester.
getting ready to leave for school.
last presentation for the sem,
and academic school year...
and then there's CRS,
which is an argumentative essay test...
my forte. so i'm gonna be lovin' it.

last lap! all for it! xD

been enjoying myself lately.
like i said... i'm thankful for what happened.
because it woke me up from a dream.
yupp. you bet it did.
let's just hope this continues...
the joy and happiness.
without any interferences.

i better get going. dowan to be late.
will blog again.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

despite the lack of funds, i still enjoyed a great valentine's day. it was really simple but sweet.

i picked him up from amk after his lessons and guess what? he got me a rose! though it's just one stalk, it was like the biggest bouquet i've gotten. i've never received flowers from a guy before and he's the first to give me one. ;) i was so happy, smiling and grinning away. yeaps. overjoyed. so we headed down to east coast thereafter. had lunch at the marine parade coffee shop.. and den walked over to east coast park.

had a nice time on the beach. sat there, enjoying the aroma of the sea and the sea breeze. also, the wonderful scenery that never fails to entice me and relieve me of any stress and frustrations. it also reminds me of the wonderful times i've had out at sea sailing. that's what you get for being a sailor. we sat by the beach, chatting, reminding each other of the old times and our personal experiences at and by the beach. we were simply enjoying each other's company. it was just sooo sweet. and then we had fun taking pictures and laughing our asses off.

den we left and headed for marine cove. my dear boy needed to use the restroom. after which we went to gelare for waffles! yeaps. waffles for half price on tuesdays. i've always mentioned i wanted to go there on tuesdays but i never had the chance and made the effort to go.. and so i've finally done it. on valentines day with the one i truly love. *nods. we had a LARGE freshly baked waffle with fresh cream, a scoop of "chocolate overload" ice cream and strawberry toppings. yummy. and we had a photoshoot of cream on my nose. hahas.

left the place and headed back to his place. as we strolled to the bus stop, we were teasing each other and poking fun at each other. it was just so nice... we haven't been able to enjoy ourselves like that for a very long time. and in fact, i am really thankful for what happened the past week, that has allowed a wonderful experience like that. ;D

when we got to his place, had a shower and we both had a nap. had the honour of enjoying his warmth and huggs and we slept.... woke up for dinner. and he did the SWEETEST thing ever! though it didn't cost much, or rather, it would've costed nothing if not for a postcard and several candles (oops. i think i revealed what's gonna happen). yeaps. we had a "candlelight" dinner. see below for the photo. it was sweet. really. considering our low budget, it was like the BEST thing ever. and shame on me... i didn't get him anything. i ought to be shot. i love you baby. thanks fo making my day and really celebrating valentine's day with me.

THE BEST DAY EVER. WORTH COMMERATING.

the flower he gave me

me posing on the beach

cream on my nose!

we enjoyed ourselves.
you bet we're in love...

the wonderful candles..

a photo to commerate.

another shot of the candles.

we just ENJOYED each other's compant.

and again to ALL:
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

oh yeah, another thing. DON'T EVER LAUGH AT ME. BECAUSE I'LL MAKE SURE I HAVE MY CHANCE OF LAUGHING BACK AT YOU.
ESPECIALLY THOSE CHILDISH IMMATURE BRATS.
*sniggers.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY
to all lovebirds...

note: everything's alright.
yup. back to normal.
but leave me alone for awhile.
let me settle my issues first.

when hearts bond as one,
nothing obstructs.
nothing can divide them,
nothing can be a threat.
the divine love of christ,
bestowed upon them since birth,
shall protect them from harm.
love is powerful.
love is unconditional.

for the singles out there:
your friends are important and essential.
who says you need a partner
to celebrate valentine's day.
as long as you love someone,
be it your parents, family or friends,
you should be celebrating!

wishing everyone an enjoyable day!

Monday, February 13, 2006

it came to me as a surprise
and caught me unexpected.
i was shocked, slammed and hurt.
unaware of the truth...
i'd name it,
the great awakening.

it was bound to happen.
call it a tragedy,
but i'd say it's a remedy.
to an awful, painful relationship.
one of poor communication
and endless arguments.
contrasting ideas and mentalities,
how can that bond exist?
i don't know.

nevertheless,
this remedy strengthened the bond.
recreated trust,
patched the hearts to two broken people,
and eliminated obstacles,
that were initially unheard of.

with the reborn love,
in search of a better tomorrow,
and an everlasting happiness,
we march forth into new pastures,
and begin our journey...

sometimes it's an opportunity,
sometimes it's a remedy.
sometimes it's a reminder,
sometimes it's a solution.
why take it in a negative stride?

let's hope this works.
*winks.

Sunday, February 05, 2006

i sit here and reminisce.. and i realised how much i've grown up. remember the days when you were dating back in secondary school, everything seemed like a fairytale. You can meet almost EVERYDAY, without complain... But as you grow up, your responsibilities start to increase but your time seem to decrease. Just as the other party starts to get busier, you start to feel neglected. You feel like you're all alone... And that your partner isn't spending enough time with you.

I bet many of you are guilty of this. But why is this so? Generally, I feel it's the inability for one's partner to accept this change. Adaptability to this change is difficult because some people are just not used to it. Your partner who used to be around almost every other minute is suddenly missing and you "rarely" get to see him/her. What i mean by "rarely" is the decreased amount of time spent together. Does not necessarily mean once in a month or once in a year. If you get the drift. On the other hand, i guess one party matures faster than the other. His/her goals and priorities in life has shifted. Like for men, as they grow up and realise their dreams, they tend to put career first. Us, girls, start to feel neglected and lonely and we start to bug them and argue with them a lot more for the decreased amount of time spent together. Is this Right? Have you thought of the actual reason to why he's so busy?

Well, I'm starting to understand because i sort of face this problem myself. Initially, i used to think my partner didn't give me enough attention while he's at work and busy with other stuff. I start thinking too much and my thoughts just run WILD. I draw possible conclusions which were never near reality. (it never happened) And right now, the tables have turned. I start to get busier and stuff. And because of this change, my partner now cannot accept this change. How am i to address the matter? I guess I've finally realised what he went through before.

To all those of you who may be experiencing the same problem, TALK to your partner. One thing i learn is that communication and understanding is important... Coupled with TRUST. And if that still doesn't work. Try to fork out a bit more time to spend with your partner and gain his/her trust. If the problem still persists, and if it's comfortable with you, you might want to readjust your schedule to accomodate him/her. If that still isn't possible, and if your partner makes you feel very guilty, then it's about time to reconsider the relationship. Because your partner is supposed to be one who supports you regardless of what you do. If he/she makes you feel guilty, then he/she's just adding sorrow to your life. He/she should actually be bringing you happiness and cheering you up whenever you are down. If he/she adds on to your problems, then it'll just make you more miserable. Consider well though. NEVER live in REGRETS.

enough for now. i've gotta get going. will blog again. time to go to mindchamps. x) the place i receive my positive energy. simply love that place. to all those who've never heard of mindchamps, it's a study centre sort of... teaches you learning techniques and life skills.. if you're interested, tag my board or contact me. i'll tell you more about it.

as for now. adios. have fun! don't lose your adolescence to the prevailing stress of this society. ;) *winks.

Friday, February 03, 2006

as mentioned, my mom's birthday was 4 days ago... my dad wasn't free to celebrate with her so he decided to take us out for dinner today. had dinner at hotel royal @ queens. yoshi japanese restaurant. they serve the a la carte buffet which is to our liking. x)

here are some pics. (in random order)

my crazy ass brother.

my happy mom with her jap style birthday "cake"

nice sweet happy family.

caught in action.

snap shot.

love this shot.
had 3 bowls of edemame

the tired me.

daddy having his sashimi. 5th plate i think.
his individual share.
we had 4 giant plates before that.

mom and bro.

my two cheeky bros.

poutty dad begets poutty daughter
(a glimpse of my dad's hair)

i love this unintentional photo

i swear my bros made me do this.

saying our goodbyes.
mummy & the waitors.

today was just spectacular. loved the dinner. food was good and so was the overall atmosphere. everyone was happy and we finally had a nice good family dinner after so long! i'm really happy.

and yes. new template guys. needed a face lift. so yeaps. new shit on this blog. i'm gonna try and stop blogging about boring and unentertaining stuff about my life. thought i'd spice it up a little. with a bit of a discussion over certain matters. please make full use of my tagboard. it's really dry and dead.

anyhows, enjoy your stay guys. a simple layout, nothing too fancy. hope you like it.

ps: more photos to be uploaded for the past events. (cny day 1 and mommy's birthday surprise)

pss: i've started an accounts book for my spendings. about time i learnt to curb my spendings and keep track so that i know where my money goes...

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

im bored.
ok i MUST blog bout yesterday.

lunch with the church mates.
cabbed over to sarah's.
picked up kris along the way..
at jln nira park.
went over to sarah's.
we were the first to arrive.
so i had to wait for the rest.

so i talked to sarah's mom..
aunty elsie that is.
bout mindchamps. x)
she was rather interested.
so i went on about it.
oh yeah. and talked bout my grandma.
cos she asked...
so one by one the rest filed in.
den we had lunch.

and sadly, i had to leave.
to meet ben.
cabbed over to his place.
stayed for a bit...
waited for him to get ready..
den we rushed off to meet his godparents.
his sisters were with them.
so we caught a movie...
yupps. i not stupid 2.
and terribly...
i threw up!
1) the seats at lido suck! so upright!
(felt horribly uncomfortable)
2) the screen was so near...
& the quality sucked big time.
3) got me all giddy... i had to take a puke.

uggh. swear i'll never go back there!
it made me feel like crap.
i went all weak.
gave me a headache.
made my tummy feel crummy.

so we left thereafter..
took a break at mc cafe...
and den left.
went to get mummy a cake.
made calls to get my bros home.
cabbed back cos i felt like shit.
and ordered pizza while on the way home.
baby came back with me.
yeapps. he was scared outta his wits.
but all went well.

so when i got home..
i had to wait for my bro to come back.
the pizza man came just as he approached home.
so i called my mom to get her back.
lit the candles and she came back just in time.
heh. you should have seen her.
she was so happy! x))
that's all i could do for her...
within that short period of time.
but at least she was happy.
cos my dad really upset her.
oh wells. hush hush bout that.

lalalala. yesterday was a happy day..
though i suffered like hell.

and so today.
i cut school again.
1) i felt like shit still...
2) i woke up late la.
(cos i couldnt sleep last night)
so i slept in today.

den i went out to meet baby of cos.
decided to go shopping...
went to marina square..
hahas. before that walked along citylink of cos.
i so wanted to buy the white bikini.
with green polka dots. hahaas.
but decided not to in the end.
not that nice after all.
so i bought another one.
kinda like black and white strips.
with pink wordings.
quite nice lahh.. depends on how you looked at it.
but what the heck.
it's just 30 bucks. dirt cheap.
couldnt resist.

babes bought board shorts.
so we just started walking around.
hmmm. den ended up in thai express.
had a bit of a late lunch.
i swear the branch at city link suck la.
their pineapple rice doesnt taste right pls.
TSK.

so we walked over to marina square thereafter.
din really look at much.
he got tired and a bit grouchy.
so we left for his place.
he had to work you see. yeaps.
so had chat when we got to his place.
den came back over to mine.
had dinner here...
and den he cabbed to work. ;)
poor boy.
he's so sick and yet he has to work.
and he's school tmr morning too.
tsk tsk tsk.. saddd...

ok.
and so you see...
i really have nothing much to blog about.
other than that boring life of mine.
mmmhmmm...
pardon me.
and my english is getting from BAD... to WORSE!
UGGGH. I CANT STAND IT.
I NEED TO CORRECT MY GRAMMER.
SPEAK TO ME IN BETTER ENGLISH PLEASE.
sheeeesh =x

nights everyone.
i'm grumpy.