Thursday, March 30, 2006
you broke my heart again. cut me real deep. you left a stain so hard to wash away. the pain will be forever encrypted in my mind...
it's time to move on to greener pastures. i can do without you. yupp. i don't need you. though i wanted you. it's about time i learnt to be independent and started working towards my goals. i know i'm capable of loads more and i'm all set to achieve them.
thanks to those who have been there for me.
last night was a blast. thanks guys. love you guys. hope you guys return soon cos you're already leaving.. it's so soon. =(
anyways, blog again. not quite in the mood.
Monday, March 27, 2006
i'm just so tired right now to write about anything. so i'm gonna wait till tomorrow morning when i get up and feel a bit more refreshed and orientated to talk about the EU over the weekend.
all i have to say is that the weekend was awesome. the assist team was just so great and i'm pretty sure that all the participants enjoyed themselves thoroughly and this weekend has somehow changed their lives in a way or another. this weekend has also helped me discover a lot of things about myself that i may have never been able to realise or ever notice. firstly because i become more conscious of my communcation with others, my physiology, language and tone of voice. a part of EU that we actually learn. another thing is because the senior assists, the presenters, adri and mark were keeping a lookout of me... and i guess that helped because sometimes we cant see our faults and mistakes and with the help of these people, i am now aware of the mistakes i've been committing and avoid making the same ones again.
all i have to say is that this was a memorable 1st time assisting at the EU. it was a fantastic outcome, an experience of a lifetime, a good energizer, a good discovery process and loads more to it. i've learned so so so much. thanks everyone who has made it possible. love you guys so much!!! *HUGGS&KISSES.
Sunday, March 26, 2006
i'm so shagged right now. dead tired. so i'll keep this entry short and sweet.
tonight was FANTASTIC.
the best thing bout today is that the kids from my class simply refused to participate and dance... but towards the end of the board break, before it was their turn, they finally opened up and started jumping around trying to dance along with all the other assists. it was spectacular. i was totally overwhelmed. by the way, i was dancing together with glenys, natalie and liting. yeaps. guys, i must say you were the best! everyone else did their jobs well and all of them deserve the praises! great job guys!
i am also really happy for my cousin melissa.. she made a good breakthrough and she really did participate and opened up. really happy for her. ;)
i'm looking forward to tomorrow. this EU has been great. a great EU to start assisting with. a bit of a challenge initially, but we all believed in them and had faith in ourselves and just took it as a challenge. we went ahead and did it and we were all just awesome!
well done! *thumbs up*
i'm so hyped right now from all the dancing.. however, i'm really physically tired. gotta get going. see you guys. will update again. and i'll try to steal pictures from the rest. *winks. nights.
Friday, March 24, 2006
day 1 of the March '06 EU went pretty well and smoothly i must say... assists, you did great. the energy in the level was pretty good for the 1st day...
a lot of us were pretty tired from school and work and all the other stuff. even i'm so sleepy right now. decided to come straight home right after it ended. you could see stephy wasn't HER. heh. poor girl.. she skipped her meal and felt all... wobbly and weak thereafter. girl, i'm gonna make sure you won't skip your meals over the weekend.
i'm pretty much looking forward to tomorrow where the dancing and wild stuff comes in! yayy! i love that bit. yeaps. i hope i get attached to a group actually, that'll be fun. heh. anyhows, i've gotta get going... i'm soooo EXCITED.
and yes, seeing dale, brent and ryan again is so so so good. i'll prolly be hanging out with them over the week since they'll be here and they have that time off. yupps. that's totally great. we'll prolly head to sentosa and the night safari and stuff. cool stuff happening around here. am really looking forward to hanging out with the guys. *winks.
Thursday, March 23, 2006
i've made a realisation... i've improved on my tardiness. have been rather punctual of late. however.. whenever it concerns school, or things i dread, i tend to get lazy and be late. danngs. like right now, im not even ready to leave for school where i have a meeting at 5pm. hahas. i'm a shitass.
anyways, i'll prolly be meeting my cousin cammie after meeting at school to go shopping in town. i think. she's gonna go ikea after work to buy some stuff. and im meeting her after. but if i'm done earlier then i'll meet her at ikea instead. weeee... i haven't seen my dear cousins in ages. can't wait to meet her xD
i'm gonna go town to get my red polo tees, black pants and black socks for tomorrow's EU. yeaps. *winks. i do have some of these at home but well.. it's somewhat an excuse to get more la. hahas. bleahs. already told my mom. prolly "steal" money from her later. and i don't mean literally. actually, the right word should be "extort" but not in all sense of that word. hahas. shit. i've no idea what i'm ranting about but well. the idea is there. i'm TAKING money from her.
i'd better get going before i'm really VERY late. though i predict the rest will be late as well. hahahas. the usual thingy la. the sailing team's just TARDY. me included. xD the descendants of FOS. (full of shit, aka, DALE HO) muahahahahas. i'm feeling mean today.
seriously, i'm all hyped up bout tomorrow's EU. yayy! hahahas. it's so exciting. danngs. i've found a replacement for my sunday class, but not my sat class yet. howhowhow? =(( helppppp!!!
anyhows, i'd better RUN. cheerios fer now. see ya guys around. have a great day! <33 loves.
durian was good.. been awhile. hahas. BOMB prata and mushroom+cheese prata wasn't bad either. *winks. adri, nick and i went to SURIYA banana leaf "restaurant" to have our "supper"(we din quite have our dinner). we left the office at bout 10ish. had a lil chat at the lobby with david, michelle and tina. den we left for our supper.
and so today there was only kevin and me. i got in at about 5. finished up the name tags, ticked off and checked the names, typed out those missing or spelt wrongly and stuff. did the files and it's all done! yayy! x) i feel so accomplished. love it when a task is thrown to me, and i complete it. the satisfaction is great.
been coughing quite badly today. but the sore throat is gone. so it's all good. i just hope i wont fall sick.. because EU is around the corner! FRIDAY! i sooo can't wait. 4 months!!! and it's finally here. YESS! heh. x) i love being at EUs and at mindchamps. it's just sooo fun and just energising. xDD cheeeze.
anyhows, i fell down today =( the chair upstairs, at the office area, has a faulty back rest. it comes off rather easily. i was kneeling on the chair, trying to get something printed, and i leaned, with my shoulder, against the back rest. unlucky, the back rest fell off, the bottom chair slid and i had to break fall with my knee. yes. i crashed my already "faulty" knee. it hurts like crazy. it was just stinging.. grrr. i hope i din crash my knee cap. cos that'll be bad. x( my knee hurt badly again when i jacked my knee against the (table or chair?) while packing the room after we were done and about to leave. danngs. saddd.
that's about it for today. i'm too tired to continue. gotta catch some rest. prolly do some shopping tomorrow. need red polo tee, black pants and black socks for EU. might do that before the sailing exco meeting in school tomorrow at 5pm. sheeesh. busy busy busy. *yawns. im physically TIRED.
i miss u
Monday, March 20, 2006
i may not have been making plans in advance, but going with the flow isn't all too bad. again, i've had a great night out. jason took nick and i to seafood at east coast. it was good.. and we had a ball of a time together. talked bout shit loads of stuff and just enjoyed ourselves. x)
i also realised that jason's wife, emelyn has a lot in common with me. it was great talking to her and having the same habits and stuff. hahas. i've found a partner. i must say jason and his wife are cool peeps. easy to get along and stuff... like friends i'd say. ;) great night really.
after that jason sent caleb home. caleb is his son who's bout 2 years old. he is SOOOOO cute. i think i said that a zillion times over dinner. so so so adorable. he's got nice big eyes with a beautiful smile. has a bit of that cheeky look too. he's sucha pretty boy. prolly grow up to be a really handsome young chap with loads of girls drooling over him. he'll have lots of girls to choose from. his mom says he gets away with murder. which is quite true. he's too adorable to commit "murder" hahahas.
den we went to pick faith up from her friend's place. faith is jason's daughter. she's a lovely young girl. really sociable, really sweet and polite. x) she's a lil chubby but she's still sweettt. *muack. he's got lovely kids i swear. oh yeah. faith's 8 yrs old. and she's really into music. she plays the piano and the violin.. and she reads a lot. she's got a future ahead of her. *winks
after sending emelyn and faith back, we went to have a drink round the corner from jason's place. played some pool, talked a bit, had a couple of drinks and just had a wail of a time. den nick and i cabbed back together thereafter. i was getting moody again. so yeaps. pardon my nonsense.
i realised something about myself. it's so hard to express how i'm feeling nowadays? it's weird really.. because i used to do it so well. i'd easily tell my girlfriends how i was feeling and all the shit stuff going through my head. but these days, it's so difficult. i can't even put into words how i'm feeling... is it because i don't exactly KNOW how i'm feeling because of the mixture of emotions? my mind is quite at unrest. uncertainty reigns. what am i to do? i've absolutely no idea. i'm just playing by ear currently. siggh.
anyways, it was a good night last night.. and i've had my beauty sleep. gonna get ready to meet nisa and feez. after that i've a class chalet to attend. x) oh wells. byebye for now. have fun everyone.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
had a good night out today.
after class at mindchamps, i hopped over to the next class to witness the graduation of a S4L class. i swear they were a really cool class. The energy level was bursting, the people were fun and they were just so enthusiastic. You can see how they've thorougly enjoyed themselves. I'm sure if i was in that class, i would've enjoyed myself too. ;)
was actually waiting for hafiz so we could hang out after. he initially wanted to have dinner with the girls in the class.. hahas. but decided not to after cos there were so many of them and it was just too noisy plus he just wanted to play pool... when nisa couldnt join us at parkway, we decided to go town instead. called jill and she was about to finish work so yeap.. went to meet her.
i love jill! she's the funkiest bitchy babe you can find around.. hahas. <3 she's totally awesome! the kinda thing she talks about.. just reminds me of the days back in ij. how wild we were, how daring we were and how crazy we were. talking and doing shit. it was fun. we sorta relived that moment then. im sure hafiz enjoyed jill's company. cos i definitely did.
we played pool and we were just making a fool out of ourselves. hahas. jill could hardly put a ball in and we just practically laughed the whole game through. it was sooo humourous. but it was absolutely enjoyable. after which we had dinner at kfc before heading back. really had a good night. *smiles widely.
it's been awhile since i've been to church. whatever it is.. i'm gonna TRY to wake up tomorrow to go for 7am mass before going for class. because i know for sure i wouldnt go for the evening mass.. and it's about time i got back to church before i started drifting so far.. jill and i had dis religion talk just now. i love her luhh. we were sorta just comparing the religions and we really defended our religion strongly. yes babe. we know what we're doing. x) and yeap. it was about time i did the right thing. *smilesss.
i realised something.. my best of best friends (the babes) are all catholics. hahahas. no wonder actually. i was from an ij school and yeah... majority of us were catholics. or at least there was a vast population of catholics within a school. i mean.. that's why it's an IJ school right? so that the catholics can go to. ahh yah. i should stop before i go on about the IJ thingy again. i'm just so proud of it. heh heh heh.
i'm all geared up for EU! so so so hyped up and i cannot wait! can't wait for the EU boys to come over too! and then we can party together and just go crazy! yayy! and this will be my first time assisting and so i'm so so so looking forward to it. waited nearly 4 months for this EU already. and the best part of it is that there will be TWO! anyhows, i really would encourage everyone to join the EU program. it rawks my sox!
packing on monday. see you assists there. please come alrights? 4pm at mindchamps main office. east wing, 17th floor, hdb hub. love ya my family!! ;)
3 As of MindChamps.
Acceptance, Appreciation and Affirmation.
the 3 rules to live with people. it works. i swear by that.
alright. enough for tonight. work tmr. nights!
Friday, March 17, 2006
ROMP@ZOUK was kickass WILD. (if not for the china kids: i'll explain later)
and i MUST officially announce that ADAM, if the HOTTEST and the BEST dancer in town! he shakes like nobody's business and he's got stamina! ROXOR! dude, you rawk. hahas. you're like my dance partner for the night. you were HOT. dumb's the best person to club with, ANYTIME. MoS when i turn 18 ya? *winks.
so i went to gardens with my bro(ernest) to get the alcohol before we headed over to JURONG WEST in a CAB to AH DUMB's place. heh. cost us like almost 17bucks(peak hour charge). got there bout 7+ and of cos.. the drinking started. ;) we managed to open the little bottle of absolut vanilla. my bro transferred it into that small bottle which, unfortunately, had a squeezy cap. took us awhile to get it open. but eventually we did, so it's all good. dumb and i were all for shots. but the rest were not too keen. and i swear the all got high SOOOO fast. hahas. you should see the lobsters. i'll post the pictures later. and i think the vodka twist thingy is disgusting? though the rest said it was nice. anyhows. i decided to stay sober.. or else there will be no one to look after the rest. so i only took two shots and a couple of drinks. 3 cups? yeah. and ahdumb was CRAZY! he poured sooo much vodka with a little bit of soda/ribena. NUTTERS. considering the fact that the rest couldn't really drink well. (dumb: it doenst meant that you can drink it means that the rest can to) let's hold adam responsible for pei han's puking. anyways, yanzu got high quite quickly, and so did peihan. melissa didn't drink much. ahdumb drank the most i think. hahas. he wasn't walking straight.
and yes... i've yet to introduce the new friends i've made. they are... peihan, joanna, melissa, jonathan(actually, i've met him before), joey, forgot, yanzu, weiwen. <-these were those that were at dumb's place. then there was brendan, helme(not sure if that's how you spell his name), jia xin, shirley, charlotte, terence and quite a few others that i may have missed out. so imagine. there was like this big group of us occupying the podium and the dance floor. hahas.
zouk was packed. it was freakin crowded, but we enjoyed ourselves nonetheless. we occupied the podium. hahas. all of our friends were on the podium. but i think dumb and i were on it the longest. it was really irritating when the rest were just pushing and trying to get up? hahahas. dumb did a good job in pushing them down "unintentionally" hahas. he'll shake his way down and use his butt to ward them off or push them down. it was rather hilarious i must say.. but it was effective. and that was like the most important. and then when the china kids started really pushing their way, we got really angry and pushed back real hard. and then we nearly fought i swear. got us all so pissed. grrr... mood spoiler. =/
i left for a bit to meet mabel. at the same time went over to the prata stall to get something to drink. i swear i was SOOOOO DEHYDRATED. mabel went in before she met me. so i had to go in and look for her. took awhile before i actually found me. brought her friend and her down to the dancefloor, near where all my other friends were. heh. tried to pull them up onto the podium but then it was a wee bit too squeezy so they decided to stay down.
danced our way till like 2am in the morning? hahahas. then we left... for supper. sadly, the prata shop was closed.. so we had to walk all the way to the shell station to get drinks. danngs. i was still SO SO SO SO SO thirsty. that's retribution for not having drunk water before we left ahdumb's place. =/ heh. so we just hung out at the shell. hahahas. everyone else was doing the same thing. funny.
den they decided to go back in. me, peihan and terence hung out at the prata stall (there were chairs left outside) then when it was close to closing, we went back in to look for them. everyone else was just hanging around the dancefloor, as if reluctant to go home. hahas. but it was cool. seeing zouk with lights on. x) it got a bit cold for me... heh. after cooling down at the prata stall. but thanks to my sayang, he kept me warm. hahahas. and so they wanted to come over to my place. but then we wanted to have supper 1st so that those who had to go home could still hang out for a bit. jonathan brought us to where he thought there would be food. sadly, there wasn't. some suggested going to bukit timah while the rest wanted to come over to serangoon since they were coming to my place. so in the end, those who had to go back home, went home and those who were coming over to my place, came to serangoon. went we got to the prata store (near nick's place) there were sorta closed for cleaning. but they still served us. we were hungry for food. at 1st they said we had to wait 10 mins... and then later they said they had to wash the floor before they could serve us. and that meant another 20mins... so we ended up eating mee goreng and kway teow goreng. the kway teow goreng apparantly sucked. thank god the mee goreng was alright. but the food prolly tasted good cos we were sooo hungry. heh.
in the end we just sat there, stoned and chat... slacked till like 6? and then they decided to cab back. but because the cab driver didnt wanna take 5 of them back to jurong, 2 ended up taking the bus while 3 of them took the cab back to dumb's place. shirley, helme and brendan took a cab back together since they stayed in the east. (when east meets west.haha) and then i had to walk all the way home... alone =(
was sooo dead tired. but i thorougly enjoyed myself. it was all good! *thumbs up. well.. clubbing with adam can never be bad. he'll make your time the most spectacular time ever! eh dumb? *winks.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
it's about time i changed the layout. it was getting a little too dry and plain for my liking. if you realised, i like vibrance. colours spur me on. i'm one of wild and peculiar character. anything that spells boredom should be rid off my system.
anyways, i just set foot on another path in life. i'm taking a risk this time round. unaware of what the circumstances will be, i'm willing to charge forth. please help me along the way. i've been a moody bitch of late and i really would want to get rid of that stinking habit. i need to buzz out of that attitude of mine. i've gotta start speaking up like before. not afraid of anything and just speaking my mind. i've stopped that for a bit. and it's just so not me. i may be a bitch, but i'm actually not that moody. i'm just that sarcastic bitch that'll never stop arguing with you. never will shun away from reality and will never get upset with what you say, because i'll make sure i get the last say.
and so i realised what i've become. and that's probably a good thing because now i know what i have to work on to improve myself. i've changed tremendously ever since. and now it's time to return to what i really am. away from this strange would that i obviously do not belong to.
HOLS HOLS HOLS. most of it is spent at mindchamps if not home.. i haven't exactly been out. yeaps, i've isolated myself. no one else to blame for my BOREDOM really. i haven't contacted many people. but i'm gonna start doing so. just realised i needed that past week to myself, thinking of my life and deciding what my life should be. and now it's turn to emerge again! x) for a start, i'm gonna go clubbin tonight. ROMP@ZOUK ;) parties... here i come. gonna start hanging out with my buddies soon. the babes i usually hang out with.. and some other bitches. hahas.
i might start working at mindchamps full time soon. but that's not gonna stop me from hanging out with you babes. especially jillian, jean, nisa and the list goes on. i really miss my bestfriend jean. where have you gone babe? sorry i havent been contacting you of late. been in a crisis. now i'm surfacing a gain. alrights. enough of that crappin'.
a new start! *breathes in some fresh air* i'm all ready! bring it on!
sentosa? anyone?
Thursday, March 09, 2006
ironic as it gets...
with my computer in my room,
i rarely use it..
only to check mails.
i get too lazy to update this blog.
whereas in the past, i used to update everyday.
though i'll hafta run upstairs,
sit in that uncomfortable seat for hours..
hahas. ironic..
anyhows. life's been rough for me.
family, bf and shit.
oh wells. but that's life..
full of challenges.
i won't let it get to me. rest assured.
i'm gonna be strong and face it.
it's part of my growth.
and i'll accept it willingly ;)
come what may.
thanks to all those who have been there for me.
i know i've isolated myself for a bit..
but i'll come out soon. when i'm ready.
right now.. i just need to settle my shit.
it's the hols. i'm gonna list out things i'm gonna do.
1) work for mindchamps
2) fulfill my commitments
3) work up a plan for SP sailing.
4) read up on my syllabus.
5) read more books
6) personal development
7) resolve all outstanding issues.
8) more to come...
as for now. adios.
see you guys around!
holla at me if you need me.
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