Monday, July 10, 2006
how can one issue just make everything fall apart? i've done my part.. i tried.. but two unwilling parties are just gonna cause things to crumble and a lot of things to turn bad... i can see the future being very tough for several people involved. it hurts... but what choice have i and us? siggh...
when i thought things could turn for the better, it peaked and started tumbling so quickly. it's breaking me. so bad... bad things just come all at one go. talk about having a great teenage life.. i'm 18 and i can say i've gone through quite a bit. i thought i was happy but actually i'm hurting and bleeding inside. not really by the things i've done but by the doings of others that have cut me deep. i can't do anything about it if they're unwilling to make an effort or if they decide to give up so soon. all i can say is... quite a few people are gonna suffer in this process. sigghh..
arghs. i don't wanna talk about it. it makes me feel so sad and makes me wanna just cry.
1) school's a chore. i hate it. and im doing badly at school.
2) i lost several friends.
3) some people are not happy with me.
4) my family's a bitch.
5) i seem to have so many problems i'm just getting overly temperamental.
6) both of my grandmothers are very ill.
7) insufficient funds kill me.
8) life simply sucks.
ARGHS. FUCK IT.
