Wednesday, October 10, 2007
well, the medication i've been on isn't the most comfortable kinda medication. it makes my muscles go weak and i just feel so numb. and guess what? the medicine supposedly makes me get gastrics. and there's this other medicine to counter that. but i guess it's not working well enough. pffft.
meeting went pretty well today. lots of events coming up! Sailing Experience Camp and Interaction Camp! yayy! :) more time together with my sailors.
i feel so fat i just want to lose weight. i hope with all the physical trainings back in place, that could help me lose some fair bit of weight. i've been trying to control my diet lately. i hope i can lose weight. i'm so sick of being fat... it makes me feel clumsy and lazy and lousy. i miss my body before. at least i wasn't so fat. and at least i was comfortable with myself and with a lot more confidence.
poor mummy's sick. get well soon mummy! i love you!
that's my mummy! isn't she cool? hahas. i love her!!! she's the best mummy on earth!
anyhows, i think it's about time i got down to thinking about what i want to do after graduation. about time i start to read up and decide on the things i want to do.
honestly, i think i have grown so much ever since entering poly. learning from different people, the vast difference between people from my secondary school and from others, the mentalities, planning and organising events, the independence and emotional rollercoaster, i think it has been an awesome experience. it wasn't always sweet, but it was the sweetest lesson i presume.
these were the growing years of my life. i'm still continuing to learn and i value this experience A LOT. i think it has groomed me to be a more knowledgeable, more understanding, more independent, emotionally stronger person and a better leader. a lot of times i think back and do regret a little not having taken the jc route. but i think if i haven't come to poly, i would never have experienced such a "in-your-face" growing-up experience.
i guess, in life, there are times where you are made to be thrown off-course so that you can learn life's lessons at its best. i really appreciate it. and i want to thank all those people whose lives has crossed paths with mine. if it wasn't for you guys, my life and i would not be what it is today.
then again, looking at all my friends, everyone has changed. be it for the better or worse, they have grown up in their own ways. sometimes it hurts to see how they alienate themselves from you but i guess that's part of growing up. people change and some just become a totally different person who cannot seem to associate themselves with you anymore. and that's where learning to let go comes into play. however, noticing those who have changed for the better, you're so happy for them that you feel like celebrating.. and for those who keep you close to your hearts, you know you've not made the wrong choice in befriending them.
i guess that's enough for today. i wanna watch TV. :)
that's my mummy! isn't she cool? hahas. i love her!!! she's the best mummy on earth!