Wednesday, October 24, 2007
lecture got cancelled but i got no news of it. damn sad. could have slept in longer. danngs. so now i'm just waiting for MR lecture which i cannot afford to skip anymore. :) i shall be a good girl. i made a pact with baby that for every lesson i skip now onwards, i owe him $5. i hope i won't become so poor.
when i told him that... he said that since last time till now i owe him hundreds. basket. cannot be more lenient HUHH. pffft.
wei lu's not going for gems today. so i'm all alone. i think i will cabot after i sign the attendance. muahahaha. cos today is lecture. and nobody cares. i tell you. all the guys just leave after signing the attendance. and he doesnt friggin care. how cool is that. i was telling wei lu... "eh... why don't we just leave.. so tempting right?" that was the lecture before last. however, we were good girls. and wei lu came late. so i din want to waste her trip to class. least she made the effort. well done babe.
i'm still deciding whether to go out with jas and ger later. hahahas. if they crash my gems i don't mind. wait for me to sign attendance and run. muahahahahs. evil eyes.
suddenly, i'm just reminiscing the times spent at poly marina. it's so so memorable. that's the part i'm going to miss most when i leave poly. rarr.... all the overnights. all the shit... all the fun.. all the stress... omg! it's going to end. and i don't want it to. i want to spend more nights with the sailors... talking cock... partying... drinking... getting drunk... cleaning puke. er no. not that. hahas. please take that out. GUYS GROW UP. LEARN TO HOLD YOUR ALCOHOL. i don't enjoy cleaning puke. but yeah. you get the gist. it's all FUNFUNFUN!
did i ever mention that sailing and the sailors was the thing that kept me going in poly? i mean. without it... i think i would have died by now. i would have like wanted to quit school a loong looong time ago. a lot of times i question myself whether i'm heading in the right direction. whether coming to poly was the right thing or not. should i have gone to a jc? where all my friends say i belong? because i know for sure i can study when i want to. i hate all those project works. all the shit you put up with. and mind you, i do learn a lot from it. not that i don't value those experiences but perhaps going to jc... then on to uni is maybe still very much the preferred route. damn it. i'm just uncomfortable because i'm out of my comfort zone. so i'm going to SHUT UP about it. ACCEPT IT IN YOUR FACE MARY ANN JANELLE LEE. NO ONE FORCED YOU TO CHOOSE POLY BUT YOURSELF. SO LIVE WITH IT.
and did i mention i may give college a miss? yeap. i may. or maybe take it part-time as i work. i'm all geared up to start my business. minus the research and the reading up. yeap. and of cos the official networking and learning. i kinda have a rough skeleton of what i want to do. so yeap. and i'm so glad my dad's pretty supportive. i thought he wouldn't be.. just like how my aunt put me down saying that that industry is tough. hell with tough. where's the challenge when it isn't tough. bring it on man. it's my passion. you can't bring me down. lest i bring YOU down. :) but then again, thanks to my ever convincing tongue, i managed to convince my aunt that. HEY! that's what i want to do and you're not going to stop me. i know what it's like and that's exactly what i want to do and where i want to be. and guess what she said? "i'm waiting for your business proposal". isn't so AWESOME?
actually, i must be very thankful for my family. i'm blessed. whenever i need support, i get it. even when they are skeptical... all it takes it's some soft coercing and some love and well, some intelligence. they'll either do it because they're totally convinced or they just love you they want to help you. even if they know you will fail. i'm not saying i'm going to fail cos i'm going to make sure i so won't. :)
damn. that's really a whole shit of ranting early in the morning. oh yes. i'm an afternoon baby. i was born at 2pm and i guess that explains why i'm not a morning person. pffft. heh. i think i must thank that bowl of prawn mee that made me oh-so-absolutely FULL to the brim.
and then again, it's probably the bitch instinct. yeap. it's day 1. fwahahaha. that's enough for now. would love to catch a movie before my next class starts. though fc6 is getting noisy but heck with it. movies rawk my life.... absolutely phenomenally. SMILE. i'm in that mood. xD
baby... i'm with you... by your side.. always supporting you. be strong. i love you.
