omg. kah soon... how can he do business like that?
was so pissed just now.
gave him a piece of my mind.

well i've officially resigned.
so today is my last day at work.
kah soon has also asked me to leave early..
he doesn't need me today.


so i'm gonna go home..
and get ready to meet the girls tonight!
kris, sarah, leanna, sherlyn, corde, amanda, denise and robyn.
yayy! :) hog's at vivo it shall be.
thank god i drove to work today.
the sky's building up.
getting ready for a stormy day.



got lots more to blog about.
especially that night at dbl o.
oh and graudation as well. :)
look out for the next post...
with PHOTOS!

i guess the heat cooled off a lil but the sulk still remains. well i did feel guilty when he came in with a pitiful look passing me the slip of paper with my personal email for the company and the passwords for it.


but damn the moment he left, i knew i had to quit. how long can i stay cooped up in the area? i will go mad! i'm not achieving much and i don't like it! hmfh!


i think my blog has become an oh-so-typical ranting space. but i suppose this is a good outlet. hahas. i'm sure it entertains some of my readers as well. :)

ohhhh nooooo! i just remembered that i forgot to bring my passport to work to photocopy and fax it out to diner's travel! omg.... my aunt will kill me. shit. i think i need to try to delay it till tomorrow. dunno can or not. :(


oh wells. andrew just came in telling me about his squabble with kah soon this morning. they were talking about purchasing stock for the next month or so... cos it takes a month for the stock to come in. andrew gave him a dressing down because he clearly had no idea what the market in singapore was like and his planning is F*CKd. he can only plan so far. no further than ONE MONTH. omg. i don't know how he has survived this long in this trade. pfft. what a loser.


ok. enough enough i should get back to work. i'm still thinking of how i should tactfully break the news to him. i've already drafted out my resignation letter. and i'm making this saturday my last day. i'm just selecting the best time to pass the letter to him. :) i don't want him to treat me like dirt the moment he finds out i'm leaving... wanna avoid all the nonsense so i don't want to do it too soon. heh.

i have no idea why my blood is boiling ever since i had a longer weekend.


i feel very unhappy with my job... with my boss... and my job scope. i think it's a sign... at church last evening, there was a little voice that told me to leave my job for something better. and to just enjoy the free holiday i'm going to have. is that god's voice?


i don't know. there are opportunities. and about the only person i'd stay for would be raymond. kah soon.... HEADACHE ah. i don't like being instructed by him. he's a useless boss. not the kind of person anyone would wanna work for. he has no plans and he has no time for you. so talking about learning from him and having him to guide you? wait forever! it will never happen.


i feel i need to go out and learn more. learn from people who are more willing to help me and guide me along... and also to an environment which is more condusive for work and more positive. negativity lingers in the air of this vacinity. it sucks. the mood sucks. but the people rock. i've met great people and they're wonderful! we're all caught in the same situation.


over lunch, ee lin was so mad at kah soon, so we talked about it. knowing that she's going to leave at the end of this month, he offered to give her a pay raise to make her stay.. because she knows more about the products than he does. she knows the system better than anyone else here in the shop. omg. you know how much the pay raise was? his exact words to her, "eh ee lin... i pay you 50cents more la. you continue to work for me"


she was stunned! she said.. you pay me $7 or else i don't work. and then he thought for awhile... then he said. ok i pay you $7 but you do for me admin work also. of cos automatically she said no. her value is that little? C'MON! no one knows better about the pro shop system than she does! she has even done the admin work for you, she knows so much more! this is the place where experience isn't an issue. you can know nuts and know damn hell of a lot, but your value is equal. nobody is ever good enough in his eyes. unless you're a nerd that nods at everything he says and become technical with him, then you are smart and a good worker. how silly. you're never appreciated here la.


i'm contemplating when to make my exit. be it the end of this month of the middle of next month before my gold coast trip, i'm booting out. i think i've had enough. and the marketing of the itbike that was passed on to me. i'm sorry i don't think i'm up to it. it's a con job. i can't sell something that i don't believe in... and knowing that it will spoil very quickly for such an expensive thing. I'M NOT DOING IT. so don't waste my time


:) yay. i've had my piece of mind. back to work. the blood's still boiling but it's cooling off. like the mild boil on a gas stove.

my aunty has just offered me to follow them to gold coast for their family holiday. an all paid for trip. but i'm rather dilemmatic about it.... the dates they want to go on... will clash with my birthday! arggghhs. HOW?!?!?!


it is hardly that my birthday falls on a saturday! and now they present me with such a tempting offer. i really dunno how. i'd really love to go! but then again.. to leave my dear baby boy behind on my birthday... ok la. thankfully it's not his birthday. i'll definitely have to turn them down if it's his. my mom scolded me for being stupid if i reject that offer. free holiday she says. hahas.


looks like i will have to find a way to take leave to go with them. :) or :( i dont know...

a record 5 months of inactivity. HAHA.

now what have i been doing? many have asked.

now i'm asking. "Why haven't you asked me personally?"
this is like one of those "AH-HA!" moments.

anyway, i've been fine (how typical). Well life has been kind to me by providing me a job of passion. Why do i say so? I have landed myself a befitting job - sales & marketing executive - at a sea sports centre. Well which sea sports centre then? NSRCC Sea Sports Centre. If it's beneficial to you, Constant Wind has taken over the operations from SAF Yacht Club for NSRCC Sea Sports Centre but will still continue to be managed by them. So yes, I am working for Constant Wind, specifically for their new set-up.


Now I must say it's an experience worth putting up with. A new set-up would mean relevant experiences. Yes, I would like to set up my own business in future and this would give me an insight to what it would be like. Learning their mistakes would help prevent me from making the same ones in future.


About the experience so far... There are definitely ups and downs just like any other job. I have been learning a lot from both Kah Soon and Raymond (this business is a four-way partnership. Kah Soon is the front man while Raymond is just an investor who does a lil hands-on as he claims it's his passion). Kah Soon is more of an operational guy with little business knowledge. That is why he has seen himself little improvement with his pro shop business for the past 10 years. His success today is because of his previous bosses', Raymond and team, efforts. Throughout the 10 years he has tried to make the business grow, he made little progress without realising his mistakes. One major obstacle was having his wife on board the business. A wife-fearing boss, you can imagine the consequences.


I value the lessons I have learnt so far. Merely by observing the runnings of the business, you will see for yourself what is right and wrong for it to work. Believing in your principles and hearing advice from the people around you, you will know who is helping you and who is drowning you. Thankfully, there isn't much drowning at this workplace.


Raymond has taught me much. I look up to him for his successes. Though I do not know much about his personal background, I have learnt much about his business background. He is one guy you would not wish to offend and would love to be in his good books. It will take you places. Having had about an hour's conversation with him over lunch, I have learnt many lessons in life and also about himself. He is a wonderful businessman with truck loads of experience which many would die for. I see many possibilities with him and this business though some people have been dimming my lights.

Nevertheless, I'm still keeping my hopes up and trying my very best to perform well in this job. It's great to work by the sea, though very inaccessible. Sometimes this job gets too "senang" and you feel bored. However, with the great colleagues I have, it's always a great time. We joke, crap and talk UTTER RUBBISH to keep each other going. With the new venue, new fridge, more drinks and more food to come, I see more hope. Staff welfare has been boosted and i'm sure things will continue to improve with the new partnership.


I'm really looking to see this work and I hope I will continue to be a part of it. Yup. PIONEERS of this new partnership.


So much about my job and loving it...


What's next in my life? yes. my well-known annual party is coming up. next month on the 14th. Due to a restrained budget, I am making this party more exclusive. I'm sorry to say but it's an "invite-only" party. So... If you don't get an invite, it's not so much that I don't like you, more so that you may not fit in due to the company I'm going to have. Fret not, if you really wish to be a part of it, just give me a tinkle and i'll sort it all out.

So what's so special about this year's party? I guarantee SUFFICIENT BOOZE and lots of merry-making. Games and Music will be in sync. However, this is an after-dinner party. SO PLEASE I BEG YOU, DO NOT COME WITH AN EMPTY STOMACH. I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO SATISFY YOUR NEEDS.


NEXT...

The Graduation Ceremony is on the 29th of May at 9am. Am I looking forward to it? Yes and No. Yes because it officially marks the end of the dreaded poly life and No because I'm not quite interested to see my classmates. :) But yea, I would love to see some others and catch up with them. Some lecturers too of course.


NEXT...

So what are my plans? With this job and all. It is a full-time job mind you. But I am thinking of leaving the job come year end so that I can have a whole month of holiday in the US! :) YUP! I'll be going to the US in December. Gonna be spending xmas there and I'm planning what to do while I'm there so that it's not a wasted trip. Totally psyched about it! YAYY!

Also, I'm still considering whether I should further my studies or not. If i do, then I will go to the states. But if i don't... then that means I've found a good opportunity and am not letting it slip. I've been doing my research on all the colleges there. Leanna is going there this fall. She'll be going to CSULA and well, she has been trying to get me to join her. I wish to but if I'm going to be studying there, of course I would love to aim higher. So i will most probably heed my uncle's advice and go to a community college, do darn well, then transfer to my dream school. UC Berkeley or Stanford (I realised the tuition is almost the same!) Thing is, I've gotta find a way to finance that degree should I decide to take it up.


Honestly, it has always been my dream to study overseas. I'm not sure how I'll feel years down if i let this opportunity to chase my dream slip. I have no doubt that I have the ability and capability to do well without that degree, though it'll be tougher. However, it's something I want to do in life. Oh well, I think what my dad says is true. Work for a year or two and see how it goes. If this job gives me the opportunity then don't let it slip. Meanwhile, I'm also gaining experience. So if the chances are bleek, then go ahead and chase the paper dream. By then I'll be fretting about finances.


Then again, I will have to learn to cope on my own when I'm there. Dealing with no family (thankfully I've some family somewhere nearby), and no bf :( and a strange environment. Sometimes i'd consider myself independent, but I don't deny an alien land does freak me out considering long periods of time spent there.


Ok, I've been talking too much. Don't blame me, i think that's what 5months does to you. Exams, graduating, bangkok-ing, job-hunting and all that can really drain you. But well, i've more or less settled in and all set to fly! Regrets aside, new challenges ahead. Being positive really helps.


STUDYING FOR SATs! :( back to the basics.
Just realised TOEFL is necessary too. =/
US College Prep Exams cost a lot! :(