Monday, May 26, 2008
i have no idea why my blood is boiling ever since i had a longer weekend.
i feel very unhappy with my job... with my boss... and my job scope. i think it's a sign... at church last evening, there was a little voice that told me to leave my job for something better. and to just enjoy the free holiday i'm going to have. is that god's voice?
i don't know. there are opportunities. and about the only person i'd stay for would be raymond. kah soon.... HEADACHE ah. i don't like being instructed by him. he's a useless boss. not the kind of person anyone would wanna work for. he has no plans and he has no time for you. so talking about learning from him and having him to guide you? wait forever! it will never happen.
i feel i need to go out and learn more. learn from people who are more willing to help me and guide me along... and also to an environment which is more condusive for work and more positive. negativity lingers in the air of this vacinity. it sucks. the mood sucks. but the people rock. i've met great people and they're wonderful! we're all caught in the same situation.
over lunch, ee lin was so mad at kah soon, so we talked about it. knowing that she's going to leave at the end of this month, he offered to give her a pay raise to make her stay.. because she knows more about the products than he does. she knows the system better than anyone else here in the shop. omg. you know how much the pay raise was? his exact words to her, "eh ee lin... i pay you 50cents more la. you continue to work for me"
she was stunned! she said.. you pay me $7 or else i don't work. and then he thought for awhile... then he said. ok i pay you $7 but you do for me admin work also. of cos automatically she said no. her value is that little? C'MON! no one knows better about the pro shop system than she does! she has even done the admin work for you, she knows so much more! this is the place where experience isn't an issue. you can know nuts and know damn hell of a lot, but your value is equal. nobody is ever good enough in his eyes. unless you're a nerd that nods at everything he says and become technical with him, then you are smart and a good worker. how silly. you're never appreciated here la.
i'm contemplating when to make my exit. be it the end of this month of the middle of next month before my gold coast trip, i'm booting out. i think i've had enough. and the marketing of the itbike that was passed on to me. i'm sorry i don't think i'm up to it. it's a con job. i can't sell something that i don't believe in... and knowing that it will spoil very quickly for such an expensive thing. I'M NOT DOING IT. so don't waste my time
:) yay. i've had my piece of mind. back to work. the blood's still boiling but it's cooling off. like the mild boil on a gas stove.
