Saturday, July 26, 2008
my mind is all over the place. it's a mess!
i seriously need to get it fixed.
sigh. i think that's what's causing the insomniac signs.
i toss and turn at night
and it takes me hours to get to sleep
it's annoying really.
because I AM TIRED
and i need rest.
jeez
but i'm thinking about studying in the US
how to get money from my aunt
how to convince my dad
how to deal with my bf
how to cope if i'm there
how'd i live
what should i study
where should i study
so many many things.
and then there's kris and sarah in perth
leanna leaving for LA
jean studying at uni buffalo at SIM
and i'm here. still lost.
please point me in the right direction.
work's starting next week full time at epicentre
just let me concentrate on making money first
for the US TRIP! YESSA!
Saturday, July 19, 2008
i think i deserve an applause for actually getting down to write my vocab words on a piece of paper. found the show cards a lil difficult to study. yup. that's for SATs.
i'm not actually sure i'll take it or require it but what the heck. i'll just study it and perhaps just waste the money and take the exam even if i don't need it. :)
anyhow, i've been at jk's place the whole afternoon. his mom and dad left the house at about 4ish, leaving me silence and serenity! it's an awesome room, his is. perfect for studying. and really cosy for bumming too. suits me perfectly! haha.
i've just showered and am thinking of leaving the house to northpoint to collect my popular card and get some more stationery (i think i have an obsession with it, besides magazines). yup! i'm quite bored and i need a job.
WHAT A PROCRASTINATOR I AM. BOO!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
just on saturday, had a great time with my aunt/godma
met up for lunch at marche, vivocity
then walked around for a bit.
before chilling at starbucks
talked the whole time we met up
and really learnt so much more about her
i felt like a terrible niece/goddaughter
i've never spent her birthday with her all these years
so i thought i should stop procrastinating and get down to it
and i'm so glad i did...
i sensed her loneliness and her desire for company.
but no doubt she's blessed. :)
of course we talked about my plans for the future
though there was no definite confirmation
it was almost certain she dropped hints of sponsoring my studies
she knew my parents couldn't afford to send me overseas to study
and there was practically no hope for me in the local unis..
and private unis are just not good enough
so she wants me to think about what i really want to do
and also think about what kind of BASIC degree i want to do
because she feels strongly that i should at least have a basic degree
that way i will always have something to fall back on in times of difficulties
and she's more afraid of me wasting my time and effort and money
should i continue to be fickle-minded.
and i guess i also want to be sure because i really don't wanna waste my time
so i'm just exploring my strengths and weaknesses
likes and dislikes so i make an informed choice
i'm really thinking about doing community college in the states.
and then progress on to a 4-yr uni to complete the last two years.
duration works out to be the same
but opportunities are different.
because of my sucky grades at poly, chances of getting into a gd 4-year uni are bleek
so i'm better off at community college, trying out my very last chance
to get myself into my dream college. :) UC BERKELEY!
oh wells. i'm still pondering about it.
of course there are things holding me back
the comfort of my home, the love of my family
and of course... my dearest bf and friends!
but i'm sure i'll work it all out...
and i'm so estatic! hahahas.
i finally got my long desired i780!
YEAH! daddy got a new line on starhub for one of his employees.
so that means i get to tag on and buy a new phone..
or else he'll just a free phone. hahas. YAYYY!
it cost me $388
but after i sell my old i600.. (it's not that old really)
i should be paying only about $148? or there about.
hahahas. baby wants to buy over my phone! heh.
alrighties. i'm lazy to blog. some other time.
stomach's growling.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!
you're the BEST DADDY in this world!
LOVE YOU TO BITS!
please don't drink too much!
because i still need you...
Thursday, July 03, 2008
HANCOCK!! (Hand to the cock! - ooops)
i would really recommend this movie!
it's awesome. i'll shoot anyone that says it's crap.
there's so many cool parts..
like how the two super heroes exist in pairs..
it's like the 12 disciples that God sent to the ends of the world..
after jesus was crucified and rose to heaven.
It's amazing!
and how they're not supposed to be together..
those there is an attraction between them...
and their mission is to save the world and make it a better place.
very beautiful.
it's not your boring old superhero movie.
this one is with MEANING.
absolutely loved every part of it.
the humour is great too.
well some Singaporeans don't get certain parts.
and also considering that i watched it at heartland Bishan. =/
but it was a good enough audience i reckon.
still really contented with the movie.
and i'm really more satisfied now that i've gotten something off my chest.
now that's for me to know and for you to find out. *winks.
it's always good to speak up and let off the steam.
the frustration has simmered a lil...
but the action that follows is what constitutes the full recovery.
anyhows, i've really been thinking about my future...
and i really want to get into fashion.
have a couple of ideas in my head but i haven't exactly penned it down.
and i'm still thinking whether or not i should study..
and i've thought harder about it.
no point going on studying something so general.
since i have such strong interest in fashion...
but i know i'm no designer... then why not fashion merchandising?
since i have an apt for business and an interest for fashion.
it seems like good chemistry. :)
i've been doing some research on the fashion schools available.
you bet i don't wanna be studying in singapore for such an industry.
my best bet would be NYC. But then again...
I'm more comfortable being in SFO since I have family there.
With Val within SFO and my aunt and uncle just a few hours drive away..
You can't blame me..
But then again, the finances are what's holding me back.
Really have to think hard about that.
Oh wells.
Baby, I love you. From the bottom of my heart.
You are truly a great boyfriend.
Absolutely boyfriend material.
