Monday, November 17, 2008
i feel really disappointed that my aunt is unwilling to even lend me money for my studies in Australia. Well, i can't blame her because in times like this, people tend to get more calculative with their finances, especially when she's an accountant.
However, she has her points too. Nevertheless, this is my dream and i am going to live it. i'm going to prove to her that i can make it and also show to her that i have my other resources to back me. I reckon god is kind to those who are kind... if you really want something, he will find his way to provide. It may not be the best but a good enough option.
Just after my dad and i went to apply for an education loan with citibank this afternoon, i read my email inbox and found a reply from my aunt. It was really disheartening because it will be a further strain for my dad to help pay for my accommodation... and with him doing that, i won't be getting any living expenses. Which translates to me having to work for it. soooo... i was quite sad la. Haven't broken the news to my dad but he more or less knows. Was at my grandma's place just now when my uncle wanted to come. Dad said he has to go off but uncle insisted on coming so made my dad wait.
He asked me how were my preparations for my studies and whether or not my aunty was willing to sponsor. So obviously, no. Told him that we went to apply for an education loan and would most likely be approved by wednesday or so.. and should be able to get the bank draft by the beginning of next week. And then, he voluntarily said he will sponsor my accommodation. Asked how much it is and said it was cheap and added that he will write a cheque for me and pass to me before i leave.
phew. that's one big burden off my shoulders and also my dad's. hahas. god blesses you in his own ways. just believe in him! praise the lord! now my dad will probably be able to help me with some living expenses as well! yay! =)
all that aside, i have been quite stressed out with all these and having to wait patiently for the several parties to reply me. that has caused a partial insomnia.. oh wells, i think i should have better sleep for the week ahead!
meeting chee leng tmr to catch up! would be a good time! miss you babe.
Friday, November 14, 2008
retrieving funds for my studies have not been smooth sailing.
i suppose when you have a pile of money, you never want to part with it.
even if you feel like helping, you still feel the pinch.
can't blame. hard earned cash.
seems like i will have to resort to getting an education loan.
and in fact, i'm pretty satisfied and contented with my dad.
he was the one who supported me to go for the UQ offer.
he said that if I am unable to get financing, he will support me.
After all, this was his plan for me that went through.
Thanks daddy! you're still the one I can rely most on.
Hence, I've been looking out for good deals on loans.
Seems to me that RHB has the best rates.
However, speaking to Citibank may sort my other doubts.
Well, that's the plan for now. Until I can convince my aunt.
At least if she loans me money, it solves my worries.
Borrowing from a relative is still better than from a bank.
Saves you the rigidness, inflexibility and most importantly, INTEREST.
I've been rather troubled lately. So many things to handle.
I've still got to worry about the one-month trip.
Well... being the ring leader sometimes isn't easy.
Especially when you're the only one in charge...
And the rest are going to take the lead from you and simply FOLLOW.
I'm accountable for three other siblings and two other persons on the waiting list.
Sounds like a tour agent and tour guide huhh?
Almost like that. Just more related.
However, I can't explain the anxiety and excitement I'm facing.
It's just exhilarating, the thought of the trip.
There are so many things I want to do and see..
And also, to meet leanna in LA! It's an awesome dawsome experience.
Can't wait!
And good news from my dear bf. He's almost landing himself a new job!
YUP! Congrats on that great interview babe!
SONY should be his new company...
Should he accept his offer.. :) Happy for you baby! *huggs&kisses
Ahhh.... my mind's in a whirl.
Busy planning for my trip...
Clearing my house/room before my maid leaves...
Busy preparing for my studies...
OH MY GOD PLEASE HELP ME.
Maybe i've just been slacking too much.
I just need to wake up and organise myself.
I should be fine.
I WILL BE.
:D
Sunday, November 09, 2008
just when i was quite set on studying in melbourne,
more options come my way.
you can count it as a blessing.
solely because i've been offered a place at UQ.
AND here's the catch:
I get 24/48 credits granted.. SOOOO...
time to complete degree = 1.5yrs.
BUT...
university is in BRISBANE, queensland.
AND..
i commence school in FEB.
SO...
I will have to dismiss my plans on going to melbourne,
leave my cousin to study there on her own (she's already accepted her offer)
and be all by myself again.
Pros and Cons
Pros
- I will be void of my responsibility to take care of my cousin
- I will have more freedome and space
- I'm nearer to more and nicer beaches
- I need not succumb to sudden visits by my uncle and aunty
- I need not wait on their family
- I can join Vanessa who will be in UQ next year in the same course
- I will finish the degree in only 1.5 years
- I have room to do an honours program
- I have a chance to do a double degree
- Costs are lower
Cons
- I will need to pay for my own accomodation
- I will be in BRISBANE not MELBOURNE
- I will have to get rid of my dream of studying in UNI MELB
- I will not have $$ falling on me so easily
- I will not get to revisit the fundamentals
- I will have to do revision before starting uni
- I will need to rush! Cos school starts in Feb
AND SO...
as you can see.. the pros outweigh the cons.
there's not much reason for me to procrastinate and not take this offer right?
PLUS... the cons are pretty much not so important.
I've been nagged at for contemplating and telling them my "grievences"
about the next hurdle would be to speak to my aunt.
the only obstacle in my path would be to finance my studies.
other than that, i'm about all set.
I've been chatting with vanessa regarding my options in brisbane.
And it appears to me that I can find my own enjoyment.
I've got to work out and convince people to get a car.
Then i think living in brisbane will not be as bad.
HAHAHAS. dad's excited so he can come visit and play golf.
AS USUAL la huh. but I think everyone's happy for me.
back to vanessa. she's moving out of her current place.
so that leaves her current place empty.
THAT means..that I can occupy her room.
but then again, I'd have to SEE for myself before committing.
yeah. you can say i'm quite excited already.
i shall leave my excitement at that.
will update again
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
Obama wins the presidential election!
History is being made for America.
The first black President.
One with a heart.
May God Bless America and its new President.
May he be discerning enough to know right from wrong.
May he guide them in the right path.
And may he be a uniting force between all nations.
Val just emailed me telling me she's keeping her fingers crossed.
hahahas. yeah. she wanted Obama to win.
Just like how she didn't want Bush to win.
And she's really excited to welcome us to her place.
I'm sure we'll have a lot of fun when we're there.
I think anxiety is setting in.
and I think I'm trying too hard to make the trip perfect.
so that nothing of it is being wasted and we make full use of the time.
to totally enjoy ourselves.
Trying too hard kills it sometimes.
And... I'm getting too lazy.
I don't like to work! Pffft.
Or maybe it's just the culture where I work.
Everything is OVERLY competitive.
Backstabbing people, unreasonable people.
BITCHY AND GOSSIPY people (in the wrong ways)
you can't trust anyone of them la.
dog eat dog world.
i'm disgusted.
A week's break has deterred me from going back.
If not for the money, I'd rather NOT WORK. :)
Go abroad to study when you have a bf...
is really a difficult decision to make.
you want to keep the relationship.
but it's not easier to maintain a long-distance r/s.
and it's so hard to leave the person too.
guess it's just a test in life...
a journey I'll have to embark on.
A decision to make.
I hope it turns out well.
We'll make it work yeah? :D
Online shopping really entices.
Gave me several ideas. But I'm not sure if it'll work.
Shopping always make a girl drool and be happy.
That's why there's retail therapy right?
ALL THANKS TO JEAN LAH.
she and her blog shop, started her searching.
ended up showing me...
and now........ i'm hooked.
hahahas. ok lah. not as bad as before.
got to curb my spendings. i'm a good girl.
i must save money. money is hard to earn.
buying unnecessary things is bad.
you have too many clothes already.
stop thinking of shopping.
stop looking at these blogs.
ok i'm psycho-ing myself.
in the process...
don't disturb...
